Y/N X Marvel (LGBTQ+)

*Clint & y/n

WARNINGS: bad thoughts, body dysmorphia, there are some 'thoughts' in here that could be triggering for some - mentions of boobs, periods and having the wrong body parts.

REQUEST: Clint x trans (ftm) reader. The reader is having a bad week and started thinking out loud, forgetting Clint was in the room until he says something

PRONOUNS: he/him

NICKNAMES: handsome, prince

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a/n: This is just quick - I wrote it that Clint was in the vents so y/n didn't know, because it fits in with what happens after. I hope that was okay.

And trans men are men, trans women are women - with or without surgery, that's your personal choice or down to circumstance. You are amazing and incredible and you will get to the place you want to get, I know it xx

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It was always tough been born into the wrong body, you went through stuff no other man had to go through.
Currently to were sat in your room fighting with the thoughts in your head, they were so loud.
y/n:" Gods why couldn't I just have been born in the right body?"
You looked down at yourself, it made you feel horrible things.

y/n:" Just looking at myself makes me feel sick"
You sit up from the bed and move over to your mirror, you ran your eyes down every insecurity you had.
Still having boobs, even though you could bind, it just made you feel... less masculine, you weren't like everyone else.
Having periods, they made you feel so dysphoric.
People not getting the right pronouns for you.
Not being able to stand to go to the toilet.
Everything added up and you felt like you were spiralling out of control.

You let out a frustrated sigh and grabbed your hoodie, pulling it on over your head, trying to cover as much of yourself as possible.
Curling up in a ball on your bed you started sobbing
y/n:" I hate this"

Seconds after the words left your mouth you heard a light thud on the floor, your head snapped up and your eyes met with Clint's.
Very quickly you wiped away the tears from your face and put on a 'smile'
y/n:" Where did you come from?"
Knowing your door was locked, that was your main question right now - Clint answered it by very simply pointing up to the vent cover, now dangling open by the hinges.

Your eyes widened slightly when you realised he'd not only heard everything that was going on but he could have seen it too.
C:" C'mon handsome-"
Clint pulled up a chair to the vent opening and patted it as a signal for you to get up.

When you didn't make a move he came towards you with his hand outstretched.
You took his hand and he lifted you to your feet, leading you over to the chair he helped you step onto it.
C:" My prince"
He bowed slightly, kissing the back of your hand.
Clint then stood up onto the chair with you lifting you a slight bit and then letting you pull yourself the rest of the way up - but he still never let his hands down as support, just incase you needed him.

He then pulled himself up into the vents with you
y/n:" We're not meant to be in here"
You whisper yelled at Clint
C:" I know-"
He whisper yelled back
C:"-But I want to show you a place I made"
You looked at him, slightly confused but let him lead the way.

The both of you continued on for a couple of seconds before reaching a little nest of pillows and blankets
C:" It's where I come to escape from the world. I thought you might like it here, no one can get you wrong, you can just be you"
You gave him a big smile
y/n:" Thank you"
Clint gave you a slight nod smiling himself.

C:" Do you want to talk about today? I might now understand to your level, but I guess I can understand from not feeling in control of your body"
y/n:" I just have tough days, my mind has always been a man but when your body doens't match how you feel - I don't know"
C:" It's hard to explain right?"
You give him a nod
C:" It's almost like someone else's body sometimes, like when you look down, you don't see you in your head"
y/n:" Yeah, that kinda gets at it"

A/N: I don't know what to do after this, I'm going to end it here but feel free to give me ideas to finish it properly.

Sorry this book is so neglected, I just don't get many requests that fit it anymore  

Christmas is sooooo close!! - is anyone excited? 

Has anyone watched Hawkeye - because it had me in tears earlier, but I cry at everything so it might have just been me :)

xxx

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