The Winter Boy's Novel (Xingyun FanFic)

Chapter 14

Dear Xingqiu,

I think you were right. Everything you said was probably right. But so was everything I said. We were both right. We were both wrong. I do admit that everything you called me and everything you said was true. But what I said wasn't. I'm sorry for all the trouble I caused you. All the pain and suffering and sorrow. If it had been any earlier, I would have never imagined that I would be the cause of my boy's suffering. But here we are now.

You must be tired of me. If you are still reading this, though, thank you. You must be tired of everything I've done to you and like you said: all of my antics. You shouldn't be crying yourself to sleep every night because of your father. Not at all. This is my fault and I truly am sorry. What I'm writing is true. I should have supported your love and will toward books and Guhua arts when I didn't.

I am sorry that I was never there. It's been what, six years since the incident? And you've done so many things without me. You got a Vision... though you never told me. I only discovered that yesterday when you came to speak to me. You were wearing it backward. And so hidden. Be more confident.

I'm very glad that you have a friend with you. I don't remember his name exactly, but I'm glad he's there for you. Chuuyu? Nevertheless, I am glad you have him. He must be a wonderful person and was there for you when I was not. I know that by fault. Though I do have one question. Does he taunt you with carrots as I and your brother did back then? Just out of curiosity.

I heard of the whooperflower attack from some men at the Guild. I do hope that you're alright. I know that I attempted to cut your life short, but I'm now beginning to realize what a horrible choice that was and how foolish I was to even dare to try. I regret what I did. You were only eleven when it happened. Visionless and weaponless. Though I know now that you have both. I know I scared you. And I scarred you. Permanently. And I'm sorry.

You don't have to reply to this letter. I know you probably don't want to. In fact, I do not expect it. And I don't expect to see you for a long time. But I will try to be there if you ever need me again. I hope you won't ever need me though. Thank you for screaming at me yesterday. It woke me up. Set me on fire and made me remember why. Though I wish I never had to see you cry. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Xingqiu.

Your father