Fate || Jinkook

12.

1.5 years pass just like that.

It's their final semester. Jin and Jungkook, they are still in so much love. But something did change.
Time.
Their time for each other changed. Jungkook is focusing more in his career. He landed an intership and is hustling between classes and his job, giving very little time to Jin. Jin is devastated. He wants to be with Jungkook but is always disappointed.

"Why don't you spend more time with me? Do you not love me?" Jin would ask with tears in his eyes.

"But I am working for you love. So that we will have a better future" Jungkook would answer.

True enough. Without money how will they survive.

He is doing this for me. He loves me. I should not pester him into giving me more time.

Jin would console himself.

Soon enough Jungkook got placed in Samsung in the R&D department. While Jin didn't sit in their college placements. Partly because he had plans for higher studies and partly because he didn't know coding.

They would still go out in the weekends and were still in so much love.

But then Corona hit.

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"I will miss you" Jungkook kissed Jin on his forehead while they were saying goodbye to each other.

Their college issued a sudden notice to vacate their dorms and to go back to their respective homes due to the rapid spreading of Corona.

Jin and Jungkook, didn't even properly get to spend time together before they had to bid goodbye.

Jin boarded the plane with a heavy heart.

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1 month passed by since Jin and Jungkook both went to their respective homes. And there is no sign of Corona going away or their college calling them back.
They are missing each other very badly. All they want now in this difficult time is to be with each other. But they can't. The whole world is in locked down.

JK: I miss you. I wish you were here.

Jin: I miss you too 😔

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3 more months passed.

Their last semester ended. The college decided to do online classes and conducted their exams online. They didn't get to receive any farewell party from their juniors. It definitely left a sore taste in their mouths. But no one can go against nature afterall.

Jin had to now focus on his future. Jungkook already had a job. He was good in his job too. But Jin?

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After 6 months of them graduating:

Jin's POV:

I love Jungkook but at the same time I am jealous of him. He knows what he wants and he is earnestly working towards his goals. But what about me? I don't know what I want. My plan to go for that job training I was planning for went down the hill because of this stupid Corona. What do I do now? Jungkook wants me to go for higher studies in my field. But I am beginning to question that. Do I really want to study more in my field? He even ordered books for me few months back to study for the entrance exam which is in next month. But I am not feeling inclined towards them. Every day I wake up, open a book and sit in front of it for the whole day trying to understand them, racking my brain up but still not getting anything. I am beginning to question do I really want this? I am not so sure anymore. Because of this indecisiveness of mine, I feel like even Jungkook is disappointed in me. Suga also got a job. Jimin is learning new skills and will land a job soon I know. I am the only one who has no idea what to do about my life. I was not like this before. These days I have become so lazy. I do not feel like doing anything. I spend half of my days watching dramas and shows. I don't know what has gotten into me. But I feel like I am ruining my life and yet I have no intention of working for a better future. I just want to disappear. Afterall there's no one for me. Even Jungkook doesn't give me any time. He is always busy. I would have been busy too if only I had a job. Oh God! Just kill me already.

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Jin is suffering mentally from few months now. Amidst Corona, his mother got diabetes in her eyes and couldn't see properly. After they went to a hospital the doctor told them that they would have to do diabetic retinopathy and it's a monthly treatment which will cost them money.
Jin is devastated. His mother will have to go under treatment almost every month from now on and he is of no help. Only if he had sat on the college placements, only if he had learnt coding like Jungkook, he wud also have landed a job by now. Then he would not have had financial problems right now.
And on top of all these, he just wanted a little bit of emotional support from his boyfriend. But Jungkook was always busy giving Jin very little time. But he promised Jin to provide him with any financial assistance needed. Although Jin was really thankful to Jungkook but more than Jungkook's money, Jin wanted him to be their for him emotionally. He wanted Jungkook to listen to him, to console him.

And just like that in search of emotional support, Jin texted Teahyung after watching one of his story.

Jin: Hey. How are you?

Tae: Hey. I am fine. You tell.

Jin: Do you have anything good to tell me? I could really use some good news right now.

Tae: ???

Jin: I am sad. Say something nice.

Tae: You are cute 🥰

Jin: What's the use you don't even like me.

Tae: You never know

Jin: You are confusing me.

Tae: haha.

Jin: Enjoying life?

Tae: Yes very much.

Jin: I envy you. I am kinda locked up. I can go out if I want to but recently I am more of an introvert.

Tae: Come to my city.

Jin: I wish. If I come to your city will you take me on a date?

Tae: You have a bf no?

Jin: Aah! I want to have an affair.

Tae: I see.

Jin: Don't take me seriously 🤣

Tae: I did.

Jin: 😵

Tae: So if u wanna affair. U shud ask me out on a date instead.

Jin: If I ask, will you say yes?

Tae: Depends on how you ask 😉

And just like that their flirting continued. Jin couldn't believe that he was actually flirting with Teahyung. It was so out of the blue. Nevertheless, he liked it. Their flirting seemed friendly and it felt like both of them had a mutual understanding that this was not to be taken seriously.

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Dear readers, don't be frustrated by Jin's behaviour. When your love doesn't give you any attention, you often end up doing stupid things.