Confusion Of Happiness

Hurts To Feel

4 years later
2026

Our POV

Vusi
I think of pretentious ways of telling this of ours

Ann
But there is some room for some fiction

Vusi
But all in all, it's really love.
Nothing but Love.

Ann
It's back to 2026
-- Lüderitz, Namibia
Everything is okay
Just like a cigarette ash landing in an ashtray

Vusi
-- No way
Am I trading this for anything else
An escape from what reality tells
Fictitious it may seem,
But baby this is real
Beauty is all I feel

Ann
Strolling around the town's periphery
Like sweet birds singing effortlessly
Flying around
Our hands are bound,
I look up to him and found
So much love and passion

Vusi
I can see the sound
Moving around
In her little blue eyes
Screaming so loud
To be acknowledged
And I acknowledge...
You
Beautiful soul
Made of something I don't know
But it's definitely not gold
It's something with more...
Value

Ann
Mind these words I tell you
Because they too have much value
Which might compel you

Think that you are a God--
--No love, no prob
These words might convert you
To something intimate

Vusi
But beauty cannot be beautiful without ugliness
Ugliness serves as a factor of definition
Defining every corner to it's  expected image

In the other hand -- our mothers

Ann
Our mothers have been looking for us everywhere
I'm sure everywhere includes under the bed
Sending out word of mouth and media posts
Sharing out there about "have you seen these ghosts?"

Okay, maybe they didn't say ghosts.

But I quite understand what she goes..
Through. Right now

Vusi
And on the other hand,
It feels as if our love has turned
And our fights have burned the passion
While the time is passing
We're doing nothing but fighting

The words keep going back and forth
Travelling through the air
I feel as if we could show a short sweet kindness to us
But we don't
I wish we couldn't fight
I wish we could just fly
Always
Stay happy on all days
Maybe we could find a way to talk a little sweeter

Ann
Fuck you, Vusi

Vusi
Bitch! You fucking wanna make me throw up

Ann
You're just a fucking big baby who with a soft fucking heart

Vusi
I fucking have feelings, Annabelle

Ann
Everyone has feelings, Vusi
It's not my fault that yours are so weak

Vusi
Fuck this!

Ann
Where are going?

Vusi
Don't follow me!

As I left - pacing out
Grabbing a rental bike
With pods on my ear
Your boy is going on a hike

Thinking about life
About love
About how love is a fucking trip
That's always on my hip

It's amazing when it's amazing
But sad when it's sad
But through all the bad
I cannot always stay mad

I came back to the guest house
I see a lot of moving
A few cars parked at the parking lot
I see my mom's huge Beamer
And Ann's mom's C-Class
Fuck! They found us!

Ann
Our moms have found us
They found me sleeping
As they escorted me to Vusi's mom's car
I see Vusi from afar
Staring back at me
Completely awestruck

He makes a run for it

Vusi
I went straight to my car
I drove straight to the Namibian capital,
Windhoek
I stayed there for a few days

Ann
When I was back in Cape Town
I have put on my sleeping gown
Spent all day, every day in my room
Not knowing if my love is safe or doomed
Gloomed is my periphery

I call him, it rings
Voicemail
And it goes on like that for at least 10 times

Vusi
As I watched the screen of my phone
Not knowing what to say or do
But I Know that I miss my baby
I wish I could see her now

I pack my bags and I hit the road
I am headed back to Cape Town!

Ann
I receive a call from him
The gloom starts to fade
I answer:
"Hey, hey Vee. Where are you?"
"I'm coming baby."
"Coming where, what are you saying?"
"Home. I am coming home."
"Oh, okay."
A beep from a truck audiates
"Are you driving?"
"Yes."
"I here a truck beeping, Vusi. You shouldn't be calling me while you're driving"
"No, babe, I'm fine."
"No, Vusi, I'm hanging up now..."
The beep became louder and longer...
"Bye..."
The beep becoming even more louder
"Drive safe!"
That was the last beep until
It was just quiet
I dropped my phone
"Vusi?!"
Tears were welling out...

Vusi
Dark, dark, and some more dark.

Ann
A few days later he was transported to the Netcare N1 hospital
Went out and my mom's car blocked my car in
So I decided to run to the hospital

As I saw him laying there
Not able to move a muscle
I have never been so shattered in my entire life
How can someone care about someone else this way

Vusi
Dark, dark,
But at some point - there was some light
I woke up!
And the first person I see is You
As You're giving me a warm smile and caressing my face with your hand
I knew there was something special here.

INT. CONFERENCE HALL -- DAY

WE see THE COUPLE caressing each other's hands standing in front of a cheering audience. They look at each other with the utmost love beset on their faces as:

Ann
We are hear today to celebrate great love as we publish our memoir.

Vusi

         This has been a dream     
           since 2021, as high            
           scholars who wrote
           this book individually,
           we are grateful that we
           had the chance to have
           our official launch.
           In the end, Love wins.
           Just like always.

The people starts to clap and chant.

The book was voted The Cape Times Bestseller.

Fin.