Calls To Lou. (Larry One Shot)

Calls To Lou.

”Hey Lou I know we haven’t talked in months… but I kind of just wanted to say that I miss you.”

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“Hey it’s me again. I know you’re mad and that you probably never want to see me again but I just want you to know that I love you.”

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“It’s me… again, I have called you a million times and I miss hearing your sweet voice, I know I fucked up and I am sorry.”

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“It have been 2 weeks and I feel so alone, I miss you so damn much Lou.”

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“You know I love you Louis please never forget that.”

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“I have been drinking again. I try to get your pretty little eyes from my mind but I can’t… I love you so damn much Lou.”

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“It’s me, I just wanted to tell you that I miss you and I love you… call me whenever.”

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I look down on the phone in my hand. How could I ever be so fucking stupid? I have tried to call him every night sense I fucked up and he won’t pick up. I’m not surprised because I fucking up real bad. Why would I say that to him?

I love him so much and I have no idea why I said I didn’t… I’m so fucking fucked up.

I look at the phone again and my eyes start to get teary again, why am I a fuck up?  I wasn’t supposed to do those things.

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“Hey Lou… I just need to hear you say that you love me one more time please… I’m going to go crazy.”

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“I’m sorry… for everything… I was wrong about everything.”

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“Hi…. I’m sorry for my voice but I just cried over you… again… I just miss you so damn much.”

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“I just listened to that song you love so much with Mayday Parade… I understand why you love it so much…. Please stay Louis…”

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I break down after the last message it has been 3 weeks and I have called Louis every single day and he doesn’t answer… I leave a voice mail but I’m not even sure if he listens to them… for all I know he could be deleting them without even listening to them. I like to believe that he listens to them and misses me just as much as I miss him… because I miss him really much.

I have never felt so much pain as I did when he walked out of my house. He walked out and I realized that this time I fucked up big time… he wasn’t going to come back.

I look at Liam who is sitting on the chair beside my desk. He is here and try to make me go back to school but I don’t feel like it.

“Harry you need to go back to school. You have been away for 3 weeks now, I know you’re sad but I won’t let you fuck up your whole life over some stupid boy.” I look at him and I think he realize that he said something wrong because he looks like he forgot how you talk.

“Don’t you ever dare to call Louis stupid again, I will fucking break you Liam.” I know he is my best friend but that doesn’t make it alright for him to say that Louis is stupid. Louis isn’t stupid he is special and he is actually really smart… actually the smartest person I have ever met.

“I didn’t mean it like that and you know it.” Liam says. That is why Liam is my best friend, he isn’t scared that I will break him…

I am pretty scary a lot of people are scared of me… Louis never was because he knew me sense we were kids. I just want my Louis back… the Louis who I had a lot of firsts with… My first kiss… My first date… the Louis who took my virginity… I gave him everything and he did the same to me… but I fucked up by telling him in my drunken mind about how I would much rather be with Liam than him… which is absolutely bullshit because I would not want to be with anyone more than Louis… I wanted to marry him someday…

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“Hey Louis… This time without is killing me… I don’t want to be with anyone else than you… I only want you… it was always only you.”

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“I love you Harry.”

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I look down at the phone and the voice mail on it. I finally went to class today and Liam took my phone from me so I would actually listen on the lesson. When I got it back I had a voice mail from Louis with those 4 words…. He loves me. He doesn’t hate me… he loves me… He loves me… He loves me…

Louis loves me.

Louis:

I am unsure if I did the right thing, but I know that I can’t keep living like this, I need Harry.. I need him to keep me warm and keep me from falling apart. I miss him so much.

I have been listening to Mayday Parade a lot and I know that I need to get him back. I can’t let one little thing… that he said in his drunken mind split us… I just wish he didn’t say it… because it hurt so much.

The halls is empty but I know that Harry will come out from his math class soon. I saw him here this morning so I know he is here. I just need him.

The bell rings and I can see him walking out together with Liam, I know that I send the voice mail last lesson which means he must have seen it.. or this will be really awkward because I don’t know what to do…

When his eyes meet mine I know that he have heard the voice mail because he looks so happy to see me.

I can’t even react until he is holding me close in his arms. I love the feeling of having him close I just need him close.

“I love you so damn much Louis William Tomlinson and I am so sorry that I fucked up so badly…” He says and I can hear that he is crying …. That only makes me cry.

“I love you to Harry Edward Styles.” I say and I feel my own tears falling. Damn the things this boy does to me and he doesn’t even know it.

“You are my only one and one day I will make it official and marry you.” He says and I can feel myself holding him closer.

“And I will be there telling you that I will only marry you if you don’t make a big deal out of the wedding.” I whisper in to his ear and I can feel how he kisses my neck… I don’t care what people say that you tell the truth when you are drunk… because Harry’s actions speak louder than his drunken words.