There are two types of people in high school: the ones that you can date and the ones you can't. Unfortunately for me, I'm the latter. Even though I'm around hot football players every afternoon, they are not allowed to date me. If they even come cl...
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--- Chemistry Classroom ---
The bell rings. I gather my things and hightail it from the room before Ryan can talk to me. Through the noise of the other students, I hear him call out my name
Of course. It is like my ears are trained to hear his voice... I feel bad. I mean, I'm mad at Ryan and he doesn't even know why
So, despite the warning bells going off in my mind, I turn around... I can see his gaze as he stares at me. Just when our gays met, he raised his hand as if to signal for me to wait. Before I lose my nerve, I turn and push through
I must have lost him in the crowd because he never catches up to me. I spend the rest of school trying to ignore just how painful it feels to watch him flirt with Lindsay
I feel betrayed. I'm not sure why, but the ache in my chest tells me I've never been a fool. There's no way Ryan has any feelings for me, and I am an idiot to have hoped he might
When the final bell rings, I pulled out my phone to see I have a few missed messages...
One is from Rebecca, saying she is going to be a few minutes late to pep group.
One from my dad, reminding me that I need to go straight to Mr. Dominic's room for pep group
And one from Ryan. I swallow as my finger hovered over his message. I can read the first few words
--- Notifications ---
Ryan: Y/N. Got your text...
Do I want to open it? Do I want to read what he said? Has he noticed that I have pulled away-that I'm not some doe-eyed girl anymore?
I take a deep breath and press on the trashcan instead. I don't want to know what he said. I want to forget that I've put my guard down for him.
That I have lied to my dad for him. It's better to be alone than hurt, that's what my dad has taught me. I haven't realized until this moment how true those words are.
Ryan has convinced me that I am special. That he wants to be around me. It has all been a ruse. An easy way to get an A, and I fell for it, I'm a fool.
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