Just another day (one direction fanfic)

Chapter 18

Paige's p.o.v

Katie got released from hospital about 2 hours after me and Niall made up, we walked into a room full of tension and I'm not going to lie there was awkwardness between me and Niall too I mean we had just told each other we love each other but I don't think any of us know what we want.

Everyone was silent in the room and Katie had been crying, Chloe was stood awkwardly in the corner and the lads were just looking at the floor, I had walked straight over to the bed and given Katie a hug because no matter how many times she tells me she's fine every time I look at her I will be remembered that because of me she was put in danger, every time I see her on the crutches: that was me. When she has a scar on her head: me.

When the nurse finally entered to tell us Katie could leave we all jumped up, the lads left the room immediately leaving us girls alone

"all this awkwardness, it's my fault" Chloe said

"no it's not they are just being stupid Chloe and they'll come round" Katie said but I could tell that secretly she was worried that they wouldn't.

I passed Katie her crutches and she hopped off the bed and we walked out together.

The lads were sat in the waiting room I forgot they were staying at Katie's with us tonight this is going to be a bad night.

We travelled back to the house in silence the only noise to be heard was the occasional beep of someones phone when they received a text.

"I'm going to bed" Katie announced when we walked through the door

"ill come up with you" Chloe said and I don't bother trying to join them I know Chloe wants to speak to Katie.

I was sat on the opposite side of the room to the lads and it was still awkward any conversation would quickly die out. I knew what I had to do so I walked over to the cabinet and pulled out some paper and a pen sitting at the table

'dear Jessie

Hey, I'm sorry I left so suddenly and I'm sorry you couldn't come down to St. Ives I'm not sure if we will ever see each other again but I hope we will you've got a place in my heart. I hope me leaving didn't ruin our friendship, how's Tina?

I'm not sure how long I have left. That's not how it sounds because I know it sounds suicidal but it's not. A lot of stuff has happened and the boys only arrived today! Mitchell turned up at the concert, I did a runner and he got Katie, she'll have a scar on her head from the glass bottle and a scar on her leg from the knife and I know that will always be my fault no matter how much she tries to tell me it isn't!

I told Niall I love him. It's awkward and its hurting me because none of us know what to say. None of the boys are talking to us girls because of a stupid challenge that went wrong

Tomorrow I go to meet Mitchell for him to take his anger out on me and not my friends. I'm only telling you this because I know you can't stop it, if I tell any of these guys they'll stop me but by the time you have this letter I'll have done it already.

I'm scared Jessie, not for me but for everyone else. Promise me that if the worst happens you'll tell them all that I loved them especially Niall.

Thank you for being around for me Jessie, hope to hear from you.

-Paige'

With that done I folded it up and put it into the small envelope that I had found and wrote the address on it must remember to find a stamp for it.

"sooooo" Harry's voice tried to fill the silence around the room but no one moved.

"I can't take this any longer this needs to be sorted out" Zayn sounded stressed. It was easy for him to say that this had nothing to do with him.