𝐉𝐢𝐧𝐱; 𝐬𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐥 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐞

Sorry

Only footsteps were heard as Hyunjin and Felix were walking further and further away from the hotel, ending up at the park across the street. None of them speaking a word to the other, they directed themselves to a bench they found nearest to the fountain.

"What did I do?" Hyunjin simply asked. Breaking the uncomfortable silence.

Felix sighed "Hyunjin..."

"No Felix, you can't get mad at me. It's not fair for you to get mad at me." Hyunjin spoke; irritation crowding his voice.

"I'm not mad at you Hyunjin, I'm just... I'm just frustrated. I get you have a grudge or hate towards people but wooyoung and San have done nothing to you. They are just being friendly and nice!" Felix almost yelled.

"Felix it's not that simple! I can't simply just get attached to someone like you! I've been in a dark place ever since I was a child, you would never understand." Hyunjin responded in defense.

"I'm sorry Hyunjin, but you can't just be rude to anyone and everyone, you can't always push someone away! Give them a chance at least." Felix practically begged.

"Ohh, how I wish it were that easy lix, but sadly, nothing in life is ever easy. We all deal with the pain and torture the universe inflicts on us. The point is, we have to learn to get rid of it, but we can't! Because the pain that we receive, never goes away! It attaches to us like a scar made from a knife. It never disappears!"

"I've tried, I've tried letting myself reopen to the world again. Deal with the mistakes and the pain that happened in the past, but then I tell myself. I'm not god. I'm not the universe. I'm no one but a simple human being, who can only deal with the damage inflicted by the world." Hyunjin stated sternly.

"Stop it! Stop acting like your the only person in the world who suffers the most! If your in so much fucking pain, then let it out! Don't enclose yourself in your own shell from the rest of humanity! Your helping no one, especially yourself."

Hyunjin was speechless.

"I may never understand your story, and believe me, I'm truly deeply sorry for everything that happened in your life, Hyunjin. Nothing can express how much pain that brings me knowing how much pain and suffering you had to go through. But if you would suck it up, and at least make an effort to repair the damages and not damage them even more, you could feel some sort of comfort and happiness come back into your life." Felix spoke with sincerity.

"There's no replacing these damages lix, once glass cracks, there's no going back. You can't tape it, you can't glue it, your done! How can I see the sunlight and feel like I'm on cloud 9 when I don't even have the courage or confidence to pick myself back up again? Those same questions are on repeat every day, they started increasing ever since you entered my life." Hyunjin explained; eyes starting to tear up.

"How can I be what people expect me to be, if I can't even accept myself! I've been exposed as a jinx before people even knew the true me... that's why I've been so cruel to people. If I even get close to a child while walking to the store or even at the store, the parents shout at me to move away from them. I can't even go to places without hearing whispers of people gossiping rudely about me!" Felix's heart broke.

"It's tiring me Felix! I'm so fucking tired of all of this bullshit! I'm tired of crying myself to sleep every night, I'm tired of constantly attempting to kill myself 24/7 because of how miserable I am. I'm tired of knowing that I'll never be special to anyone, or just simply not ever believing I'm going to be a happy memory that gets to constantly play in someone's head." Hyunjin yelled in agony, crying in the process.

"Your special to me!" Felix intervened.

Hyunjin froze, "W- wha?—"

"Hyunjin... your special to me, you have been, ever since I first laid my eyes on you. Your not broken, your just damaged, all because of the pain and suffering you've faced." Felix expressed as he leaned over; coming in contact with Hyunjin's face, "Stop beating yourself up, it's not your fault jinnie... none of it is." Felix spoke in a calm voice as he stared at Hyunjin, directly into his eyes. He rubbed hyunjins tears gently with his thumb.