BULLY (Yungblud)

Part 6

I decided to wait until after school to ask Dominic what he meant earlier when he said he didn't like remi.

"Yo!" I shouted to him in the school yard. He spun around and faced me, with a small smile on his face which is different.
"Oh hi"
"Is it okay if we talk alone?" I asked him. "Just for a couple minutes. That's all"
"Errrr yeah" he said slowly. He was alone for a change so I thought I'd ask him now.
"I just wanted to ask what you were talking about earlier" he didn't say anything and looked down. "About Remi" see
"It's errr... nothing, don't worry"
"She's my friend Dominic. Can't you just tell me-"
"Because! You wouldn't even wanna hear it anyway. This has nothing to do with us not because friends"
"Well... why can't we just be friends?"
"Because you're not cool enough" he said with a sweet smile before walking off. This guy.

Remi wasn't even in today. I don't know why.

Dom's POV:
Right. This girls gonna be working with you for a long time Dominic, so just get along with her. S'not that hard is it? Just be nice to her. And tell her why you don't like Remi. Will she even believe me? Well she can believe what she wants but it's the truth.
I was still walking out the school gates thinking about it. I didn't see any of my mates today, today was so boring. I'm worried though. I kinda do wanna be friends with Alex but I keep just pushing her away, she also keeps confusing me, like when she says I'm more that what people think I am. What kind of weird ass marvel shit is she on about? Fook it. I kept walking home, looking down, looking at all the people around me. Giving me looks, I tired to ignore them and just keep walking. I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't even take any of my pills today. I fucking hate them. I hate them so much. I don't need medication for anything. As soon as I walked into my house, I broke down. I started crying. The crying soon turned into sobbing. I can't do this anymore. I wanna be a good person, I don't even know myself anymore. I start fights and get in trouble for them. I don't know what's wrong with me. Why can't I just be normal. I knew my mum was home and I didn't want her to see me crying. So I tried to stand up properly and walk upstairs to my bedroom. I heard her walking in though and she asked me why I was crying. I couldn't even hear her properly though over the sound of my wsobs and my thoughts racing. I felt her arms wrap around me and I felt myself getting angrier. I shoved her away forcefully and ran upstairs "Leave me alone!" Was all I could say before I was upstairs and shut my bedroom door behind me. It just felt like my mind was trapped and I couldn't go anywhere.

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I ended up falling asleep as I was crying. I sat up slowly looking around. It was totally dark. I went to pick my phone up but I couldn't find it. Then I remembered I left it downstairs. I also remembered my mum, she must be so worried, she didn't even know why I was acting like that. I quickly go up and straight to my bedroom door to open it. All the lights were still off except one that I could  see from the top of the stairs. I went downstairs into the kitchen, that light was off but the living room light was on. As I went in I could see my mum lying down on the couch, she was asleep. I felt so bad for not explaining anything to her earlier. Hopefully she forgives me and we can have a chat about it tomorrow. I checked the clock seeing that it was 11pm. I'll just go outside and sit down in the dark and look up at the stars. That calms me sometimes. Before I did I turned off the lights and grabbed my phone that my mum had placed on the kitchen counter. Seeing that it had 50% left and a few messages from my friends.

Adam:
Hey bro
Sorry I wasn't in today
Had a mad headache. But then it was okay so I just stayed off.
You okay?
Hellooooooo?
DOM!
Fuck you then

You gonna answer me now?
K fine

I had a lot more from Tom and Mikey but I decided I'll leave them until later. I messaged Adam back saying I'm sorry for not answering, not telling him exactly what happened because he's probably make fun of me tbh. He didn't message me back though which is understandable since he's probably asleep.
After that I went out side into the semi-cold. I had a hoodie on so it's okay. I just sat, looking up at the stars , for what felt like hours until I heard my name being said. I snapped out of my thoughts and looked straight in front of me to see a dark figure, I could only see who it was because they were that close to me and the street lamps were on.

"Are you okay?" She asked. It was Alex, I have no idea what she's doing out this late.
"Yeah" I said with my eyebrows furred.
"Good" she responded.
"Why are you out at like midnight? It's so dangerous." I said, clearly concerned.
"Why do you care?" I paused for a moment.
"I don't" I said looking away from her, and behind her instead. She gave me a look as if to say she didn't believe me.
"For fucks sake." I said under my breath. I waited for a moment, it looked like she was gonna say something but I cut her off straight away."I'm sorry" I said.
"For what?"
"...everything." I shrugged. "For the way I treat you. For the way I treat fucking everyone" I said the last part a bit quieter whilst staring at the floor. she stared at me like she was having a hard time taking it in. "I don't mean to, you know. I can't help it. And I hate it, so fucking much you really don't understand. An- an- and I- fucking hate myself for it." I stuttered
"Are you really apologising?" She didn't sound like she meant it in a bad way but I snapped.
"Yes! Yes I am! Is that so crazy for you to take in? I'm so sorry for the way I treat you, really I am. You have no idea what it's like though! You really don't! And every single fucking day I have to-" I cut myself off before I started crying because I wasn't about to cry In front of her. As I buried my head in my hands, tying to calm myself down, I heard her sit down on the step beside me. I felt her place her hand on my back and movie it around about to calm me down.
"Listen it's okay."
"It's not though!" I said,a bit loud looking straight at her. I could tell I kinda caught her off guard
"It is Dominic."
"Don't call me Dominic" I said under my breath, playing with my hands trying to find some way to distract myself.
"Sorry. But honestly it's okay. I know you don't mean it, now at least. All that's left to do now is...I don't know... improve. Not just say you're sorry but actually do something to show you're sorry like....do you take medication for it?" I looked at the floor again
"I used to" I said quietly.
"Oh...well what did you take medication for? I know anger issues is probably one of them" I carried on looking at the floor, not moving my eyes off it. "Yeah. Erm...d-depression" I said as I sniffed up, still not looking at her, worried about what she'll say. When she didn't say anything else I shuffled awkwardly. "I don't need medication. I can do it by myself. I don't like taking it." Her hand was still on my back.
"Well, I mean, if you think you can do it by myself then...I'm all up for that ya know but...it's nothing to be ashamed of." She replied. This time I looked at her in the eyes. Why is she being so nice to me?