Ninjago: Tears From Within

#8: Shaky Hands

Lloyd's POV

Why are bad things happening to me? I'm only twelve years old, so why do I have to suffer a lot? Why can't I live happily, just like other kids my age? What did I do to deserve this?

My father was the one who did this to me, so now I have to always be with the ninja so that nothing bad happens to me. But.. But I am always scared. Like what if my father finds me again? Will hurt me?

I turned pale at the thought of my father hurting me again. I don't want to feel pain again. I don't want to bleed and cry. I don't want to make the ninja worry about me.

We are all in the kitchen, eating breakfast together. I told Zane that I liked popcorn, so he made popcorn for me for breakfast.

Hundreds of thoughts were running in my head. My hands. My hands started shaking. Oh no. I hope that no one notices my shaky hands. I held the popcorn bowl tighter. I hope that no one looks at me. Please, don't look at me.

"Hey, Lloyd?" Cole said. I jumped slightly, for I did not expect anyone to call me.

"Oh, u-um, yes?"  I looked at Cole while eating popcorn.

He stared at me for a couple of seconds, then he turned away. "You look tense. Are you alright?"

I nodded my head while stuffing popcorn in my mouth. I shouldn't talk now. I can't control my shaky voice. If I talked, they will know that something is wrong.

I left my seat after finishing the bowl of popcorn. I wasn't really hungry, so popcorn was enough for me.

"Thanks, Zane." I thanked Zane for the popcorn then rushed to leave the dinning room. I went to the kitchen to drink a glass of water.

What if my father finds me again? Why does he hate me so much? Am I safe with the ninja? What if they sleep and my father hurts me? And what was that thing he injected me with? Am I going to die from the poison?

I lifted the glass with my shaky hand. If anyone enters the kitchen now, they will see my shaky hand for sure.

Please, don't enter the kitchen. I thought. Don't enter. Don't enter. Don't enter. Don't-

A warm hand touched my shaky one. I've been caught. I looked up to find Kai's frowning face. "You're shaking." He said in a gentle tone.

I couldn't look him in the eyes. Here goes nothing.. I guess.

"I'm just.." I sighed. "I'm just scared from my father. What if he hurts me again?"

Kai went down on his knees to be on my eye level, then he placed his hand on my shoulder. "Look, worrying about it won't do any good. I will protect you. I promise that I will protect you no matter what happens to me in the process. I won't allow your father to touch you." He said.

I smiled a bit. His words made me feel a bit better. Kai then smiled. "You like going to the park, right? How about we go there together?"

When I heard the word "park", I felt like my heart started dancing from joy! It was as if stars were shining around me.

"Really? You will take me there? Thank you! Thank you so so so much!" I said as I jumped in excitement.

Kai laughed then stood up. "Let's get dressed first."

After getting into our casual clothes, we left the bounty and went to the park together. I loved going there because of the amazing playground! There were swings, slides, and ooh! Merry-go-round! There were seesaws too! Haha so cool! I went on all of them and formed new friendships with kids around my age. You know what? I want to live here. I want to live here forever and play everyday. Kai pushed me when I was on the swings. During the time I was playing in the background, relief took residence in my heart and not a single thought about my father crossed my mind.

I played for a long time then went to sit beside Kai on the bench. I wish that I could play a bit more, but my lightheadedness had to spoil the party. My head was aching me.

"Did you have fun?" Kai said, his eyes not leaving the screen of his phone.

I smiled and looked at the ground. "Yes, I had fun today. Thank you for coming with me."

I stood up from the bench and Kai looked at me in confusion. "Can we return back home now?" I asked, and he nodded his head.

I was walking back home with Kai. I don't know why but my head started aching me all of a sudden. My legs are sore, but I think it is because I was running and jumping for a long time in the playground. We were close to the park's main gate, but then the ground started spinning under me. I stopped in my tracks, feeling really dizzy. Closing my eyes didn't help. I think that Kai noticed that I wasn't following him, for he walked to me with a face full of concern.

"Hey, are you okay?" He asked, pulling me close to him.

Kai was on my eye level. I took a deep breath then whispered two words. Two words that I desperately wanted to say. Two words that made him tense up. Two words that escaped my lips before the world turned black.

"Catch me."

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HI I AM BACK FINALLY AHHHHHH

Hehe this update is my apology for not updating for a century.

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