Sunshine

Chapter Forty-Seven

It had been three days, and I've been sleeping non-stop like a pig. I can't manage finding any motivation for... anything basically. I just yearn to sleep, when I come home, I sleep. I even sleep in my classes, I'm passing most of them anyways... But, the days really rush by a lot. Joowon's been attached to me, he walks me everywhere, but he hasn't been able to hang too much lately. I don't mind! I've been there before... speaking about parents... mines have been gone recently, but they came back. Jihyun thoroughly explained to me that they were helping our auntie and uncle. So.. I paid no mind to their business. As for Jihyun, he's probably downstairs, I'm showering to get ready to sleep like some pig again, can't wait. I'm sure the next day will be as boring as this one.

As for Taehyung...

Yeah, I've seen him around.

I quickly rinse and rub the shampoo out of my eye after crying out in irritation, turning the shower knob to the left afterwards, the sound of water rushing then came to a halt and I slid the curtain aside, stepping out to grab my towel. I eased it around my waist and tied another around my shoulders.
"Hyung! Turn the AC off, it's freezing." I shudder out, hearing a groan from downstairs. Goosebumps chilled on my skin as I finally heard the AC turn off and I made my way across the hall, to my room. It's even colder over here. Fuck.. Well, I'm hoping summer's gonna be great. I'm graduating in June anyways, (and it's already May!) so the summer will be perfect.  I swing the door open and shut it behind me, and I nearly had a heart attack.

He was standing in the corner of my room, right next to my window.

You guessed it.

"What the f.." I clench my jaw briefly, "What are you doing here."

"Jimin." Taehyung sighs out softly, "Hey, I uh- climbed in here."

"What do you want. Why are you sneaking in my house?" I huff, my eyes scanning his damp clothing. "And why are you all wet?"

"It's raining. I was gonna wait outside." He palms his lips.
"Well. Take your sweater off, you're gonna catch a cold." I mutter out, sauntering over to him to collect his damp sweater, easing it over my closet's doorknob. I'm not sure why I'm being polite, but...

Suddenly, he grips my wrist and I turn to face him.
"I'm really sorry." Taehyung reels me a bit closer, I could hear him trying to catch his breath. "I didn't mean to hurt your friend or... cause a show in the halls. I just didn't like.. seeing you with another guy."

My whole world froze.

Seeing his face again made things more difficult for me, and his voice kept replaying in my mind.
"I'm glad you apologized." I gulp, "But.. I was also upset because—.."

"I understand that the sex confused you." He quickly interrupts, "I thought it was what you wanted." He gulps.

My eyes cautiously scan him up and down,
"You're lying." I mumble.

Taehyung gripped on my wrist tighter, my towel pressed up against him.
"I... I like your attention when it's on me." He keens, averting his eye contact.

My heart was pounding up in my throat, and my legs felt similar to toothpicks, barely able to keep my weight up.
"But I always give you attention! I just decided to stop because you're dating Hyeji. Do you understand?" I plant my hands on his chest, and he freed my wrist. "You've always been my best friend, but senior year really.. changed you."

Finally, I let it out.

Taehyung stares plainly at me, his eyes darting down to my lips.
"I just wanted to grow up." He sighs, his hand slithering on the back of my neck, smoothly pulling me into a kiss. My eyes stayed open all the way, his were shut.

I'm not sure what to do or say.

Cold sweat is forming around my veins and stomach,  the towel slipping from my shoulders. I hesitate to synchronize my lips with his, my hands running up the sides of his arms. My face feels numb as his other hand caressed my upper back, and suddenly I'm reminded of the first time I've kissed Taehyung.

In the river nearby our school, all alone in the sunlight.

I felt as he pulled away and I could hear the rain grow stronger, my small lamp was the only source of illumination. The breath left in my lungs were lost as Taehyung kissed me again, my hands gripping on his damp button-up shirt, trying to find comfort in the fabric and his scent of rain, but I was so scared. How could him and I make up like this? What will happen tomorrow?

He broke the kiss off again, and gently set me down on the bed, and I felt him slither between my thighs and gaze down at me.
"I was serious when I said I can't get enough of you." He grins, and my face heats up like crazy.

"Tae, I think you should get home.." I mumble, feeling his thumb rub my bottom lip.

"I also know when you're lying." He teased, and I immediately accept the kiss he merged, my legs struggling to wrap around his waist- he moves upwards and I lightly twitch as his crotch grazed against my towel, now exposing my lower half as it slipped off to the sides.
"Taehyung," I break the kiss. "I don't think we can do this."

My breath hitched as he ran his kisses down my neck and wrapped his hand around my cock, tugging on it a couple of times.
"Please, think about it." I urge, "We always make up like this and... it'll get awkward."

I couldn't control my breath as his kisses slowed down and his hand sped up. I moan out lightly and he twisted his hand, causing my legs to twitch again.
"I don't usually take advantage, but you're really confusing me." Taehyung bit down on his lip and I couldn't bare to think.

I don't know what I want.

I can't do this, I can't do this to Joowon.

"N-No." I sit up, wrapping my towel back around. "I um.. I appreciate your apology, I'll think about it."

Taehyung stands back up and he blinked quickly.
"I'm sorry about that-.."
"Yeah, we get out of hand. Now, um.. go to your girlfriend's house." I itch the side of my head and ran to my closet, foraging through some items before pulling out an umbrella. "Here.."

Taehyung strolled over to me and slid his hand around the umbrella, and my hand. He then held me in an embrace. I guess that sort of calmed me down.
"I promise I'll make things up to you." He sighs, freeing me after a few silent seconds. He slides the window open, and I suddenly feel a small gust of wind- he gives me one more glance before he left, shutting the window after.
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