Dre approached and hugged me.- los nigga I hope you treating her good - he said laughing- you know I am nigga - dreeee he treats me real good - Alicia said trailing her hand down to my pants.- thats wassup then, I'll catch y'all later- he left and went to fix himself a drink. She was grabbing all up on a nigga like I won't fuck her right here.- you feel that shit? -I said as I was stumbling in place.- mhmmmm -she slurred. She unbuckled my belt and unzipped my jeans. We was finna get to it right there but my dad jumped up and stopped us.- y'all know better than that- he guided us to my room. He pushed us in and closed the door. He went back to his girl. When I'm off that drink I'm real different. I laid her on the bed and quickly pulled her panties off. She lifted her dress and pulled me down to kiss. I slowly pulled away, biting her lip as I did. I made my way down between her legs and starting giving her head. She looked down at me as I did, moaning softly. I stared at her the whole time, she couldn't take that shit and looked away.- nah, look at me - I said with some bass in my voice. I think she liked that shit, she locked eyes with me asap. I sucked on her clit and held her legs tightly. She was squirming but I wasn't letting her go nowhere. I smacked her thigh hard.- stop all that damn running- oookkayyy!- she held my head down as she was cumming. I slurped and licked all that shit up. I came up and she pulled me in for a kiss. Licking all her juices off my mouth and chin. I backed up and pulled my boxers down. I laid her on her side and started hitting that shit like that. I was holding her right leg up. I looked down and she was turning red. I was slamming that dick in her I can't lie. She put her hand on my lower stomach.- babyyyy - she couldn't finish the rest of her sentence. I spit on her clit and rubbed it. She put her face in the pillow and gripped it tight. I pulled out but it was too late, I already busted in her. She reached down and held herself.- you good?- I asked her moving away and fixing my boxers. She put her hand up signaling me to stop talking and laid there shaking. I went into my bathroom to get a rag and Camilla was in there. She was sitting on the toilet crying with her headphones in.- you alright? -I asked as I grabbed the rag and wet it. She looked at me pulling one of her earbuds out.- I'm sorry Anthony -she wiped her face.- I'll get out- nah you ain't gotta go, stay in here if you need to -I slurred. I stumbled back to Alicia and moved her hand to clean her up.- I got carried away, I'm sorry girl -I felt bad.- it's fineee -she put her panties on and fixed her dress. We stumbled out the room and back to the party. I went to wiz and them while she went to get us more drinks. Maddy was passed out drunk on this nigga. He had a fed up look on his face.- damn white girl did too much?- man yeah her drunk ass did too much! Look at her!- shiiit you should've stopped her then- fuck you los!- he started hitting his blunt like a cig. Camilla appeared 10 minutes later wiping her eyes. Dre went over to her.- fix yo fucking face! -he whispered in her ear. She jumped a bit and quickly got herself together- I'm sorry dre- sorry my ass, don't embarrass me bitch- he gripped her arm tightly and brought her over to us- I finally found her , you had us worried bae - he said faking.Wiz been through enough shit to know when something wrong. He read her body language but he wanted to observe some more.- you want a drink?-I asked her as Alicia came back with the shots- no thank you ,I'm okay- she replied. Everybody except her took one. Wiz kept a close eye on Dre, he couldn't stand that punk ass nigga. Nene and Alicia were off to the side talking about me.- neneeeee hoe I wanna marry himmm- girllll he can't be putting it down like that- he issss bitch and he just such a maannn! - she said clutching the bottle of ciroc.- girl I think you need to lay down- make sure to bring him too! -Alicia said as she made her way back to my room. Nene came over to me- boy yo girl asking for you -he said. I dapped wiz and them up and left to the room. Dre was drunk and being aggressive towards Camilla. He tried to kiss her but she recoiled at his touch. Wiz ain't like this so he said something.- pussy ass nigga you see her backing away!- who the fuck are you? Get out our business-wiz gently moved maddy over and got up. Dre was like 6'5 so wiz had to look up at that nigga.- I said leave the girl alone brah- do something bout it fun size lil bitch -wiz turned like he was finna walk away and stole the hell out of Dre. That big ass nigga fell down stiff. Camilla went down and held Dre.- WIZ! I WAS FINE!!- NO THE FUCK YOU WASNT!- IT WASNT YOUR PLACE TO DO ANYTHING!!!- she sat there and held Dre. Wiz was pissed and stormed out the party. Maddy woke up and looked around for him. She went to go check his car. He was standing by it smoking. She held him. The next 6 months was hell. Alicia moved back in with her family 4 months ago and I haven't heard from her since, Camilla's pregnant, and my pops found out I was selling drugs this morning. He was looking for his wrench when he accidentally came across my stash drawer. He pulled the weed and my gun out and turned to face me.- son? -he stared at me, disappointment and sadness on his face.- why?- it's quick and easy money pops, I promise I ain't getting into no shit- that don't matter Anthony! I been there, I did that shit, I ain't raise y'all to be like me!- he put it back and walked over to me. I was getting ready to go see nessa.- think about what you doing lil nigga-he hugged me tightly. I heard him start sniffling. I held him.- I did, I got this I promise.- he backed up and wiped his face. He was trying to stay all tough in front of me.- I'll be home later -I grabbed my gun and put it in my waistband. I left and after watching me do that, he broke. He went upstairs and vented to his girlfriend. I met up with nessa at her house. She opened the door wearing a towel.- I'm almost done I just got out the shower- she said laughing. I could care less, I was low key regretting coming here . I went inside and sat on the couch. She lightly jogged to her room to finish getting ready. I was twisting my hair as I waited . She called me- loveee, come here!- that was my lil name she called me when we were together. I got up and went into my room. She was struggling with her bra.- can you clamp this for me?- she said turning away from me. I did it and I'm not gone lie, I had to get a peep in. She had on some boy shorts, her ass got thicker.- you been eating good I see- I said as I sat down on the bed- you like it?- she asked messing with me.- I'd be lying if I said no- mhmmm I know you do - you gone let me touch it?- she stood in between my legs - go ahead love -she said looking at me. I started rubbing on it. She put her arms around my neck, her happy ass liked this. I hope she don't think this mean I want her. I slowly pulled her panties down as I kissed her neck.- I missed you -she moaned out. I ignored her, I ain't wanna feed into none of her bullshit. Meanwhile Alicia was at home in her room crying. Her parents were forced her to break up with me and cut contact. Ivonne was walking in the hall when she heard her. She opened the door.- I know you not in here crying over that stank ass boy- can you get out and close my door?- she said through tears.- hold on little girl, don't think that just because you got some dick you grown! You still a child and you live under my roof! Fix that attitude before I fix it for you!- Alicia said something under her breath and Ivonne heard- did you just say fuck me? Oh okay let me show you something!- She left out and got a belt from her closet. She went back in the room and started tearing Alicia up. Will was downstairs watching football. Camilla was gone out somewhere with Dre. She left out after 20 minutes, leaving Alicia in a corner crying.- I'm running to the store, her grown ass pissed me off!- Ivonne told will.- yeah letting those boys sweet talk her out her drawls- he replied.- I know right?! Just watch her until I get back- Ivonne left and Will took this opportunity to fulfill his sick ass fantasy. He made his way to Alicia's room. She was under her covers hiding. He yanked them off of her. She quickly covered herself.- please no! - she begged.- I been waiting for this since I first saw you -he said unbuckling his belt.- you a woman now, you grown and I love it- WILL PLEASE!!- she started crying harder. She started scooting away as he walked closer. He aggressively pulled her to the edge of the bed. She tried kicking him off but he overpowered her. He slapped the fuck out of her.- STAY STILL!! YOU KNOW YOU WANT THIS SHIT!!!- he ripped her clothes off and proceeded to rape her. She just laid there and cried, she knew he would hurt her if she fought back.- you asked for this, wearing those tight shorts in front of me- he said breathing heavy.- say it!- she ignored him and kept crying as she looked away. He thrusted too her extremely hard, causing her to scream. He covered her mouth and continued. By this point she was bleeding. She didn't understand why this was happening to her. After 15 agonizing minutes, he was finished. He left her there, crying and broken. She quickly got up and ran into her bathroom, locking the door behind her. She sat in the tub crying her heart out, she made up her mind to run away that night. 2 hours later I was at wiz house smoking with him and nene. I had bitched out on nessa, I couldn't do it, not after all the shit she put me through.- wassup with Alicia man, her ass been mia - wiz asked- shit nigga I don't know but a nigga getting worried, I pray nothing bad happened to my baby- yesss same, hope my girl okay- nene said holding his chest. To tell the truth this shit been eating at me. I couldn't take not knowing where she was at. Some shit you just can't bottle up.- y'all don't understand what I'm going through behind this shit bro- I put my head down, forcing my tears back- talk to us los- wiz said patting my back- nigga that girl loved me! Did I do something wrong? I just wanna talk to her g, make sure she good! Am I not trying hard enough like what is it bro?!- I kept from crying, that shit weak.- we can go see if she's home caramel- Camilla told me her mom sent her to New York to stay with her grandma!- nigga trust me, shit gone be good. Let everything take its course- wiz said trying to uplift me.- I gotta go, I'll catch y'all later- they hugged me tight- please don't do anything crazy, promise me -nene said worried- I won't nigga, I won't -I left and was on my way home when my dad called me- aye los Alicia here, she wanna talk to you. She ain't looking good -he said upset.- where she at!- I'm holding her -he handed her the phone.- Anthony please come home!- I'm down the street, everything good?!- I'll tell you when you get here- I sped to the house. When I got there I ran inside and held her. Her face was red and bruised up. Her arms and legs had welts. She was wearing my dads shirt and a pair of his shorts.- Ima let y'all talk- he got up and went upstairs, I could tell his blood was boiling.- who did this to you?!- I asked holding her tightly. She put her face in my shoulder and cried- will -she let out softly.- he touched me- HE WHAT?!!- he raped me Anthony- she held me tightly and let it all out. I was so disgusted, that old ass nigga. I was numb, I wanted to kill- let me go holla at him then- I tried walking away but she grabbed me.- please baby don't! you're gonna make it worse!- THAT NIGGA VIOLATED YOU, YOU THINK I CARE?!! ILL KILL THAT PUSSY ASS NIGGA!!!- pops came running downstairs after hearing me- aye lil nigga chill, I'm already handling that shit for her!- this my girl I'll do it! The fuck this nigga think this is?!- Anthony, sit the fuck down- he yelled at me. I listened and sat on the couch. She sat next to me and held me.- be rational for a minute nigga! You do something it's coming back to you- I don't give a fuck, I'll go to jail behind her!- I said punching my fist. I was about to lash out, I couldn't hold my anger in much longer. Alicia got me to calm down after 2 hours. A week went by and I locked everybody out my life. I was keeping tabs on Will and saw that he was at his favorite bar. I waited outside until he was done drinking. He came stumbling out into the alley to get in his car. I went up to him- aye man you know how to get to the train station from here?- he was too drunk to recognize me- yeah take a left then- I started stabbing him repeatedly in the stomach. He stared me in the eyes as I did so. He fell back and I continued. I didn't stop until I knew he was dead. I was covered in that sick ass niggas blood. I heard people coming so I took off. I got home around 3 in the morning. I walked in my room and Alicia was up watching tv. She looked over at me- hey ba- she covered her mouth.- what did you do Anthony?!- she broke down crying. I just stood there holding the knife- I killed that pussy ass nigga- she jumped up and held me- no no no noooo, please dont say that Anthony, please!- she rubbed my hair and held my face- please say your joking!- I didn't say anything back, I just put my head down and started crying. I really just killed somebody?- I just ain't want that nigga to hurt you again -I said through my tears- I know baby I'm not mad at you, but! - if this ain't scream love I don't know what does. She bathed me and washed my clothes. I can't let nobody know about this. The next day we stayed in. Alicia was still traumatized after what happened to her. She wouldn't talk to me or anybody. I understood how she was feeling so I let her breathe. Wiz pulled up and texted me saying he was outside.- I'll be out the door if you need me -I said kissing her cheek. I put my slippers on and went outside. I hopped in wiz's car.- you spoke to Alicia yet brah?- yeah she came over last night, had a big ass fight with her mom- man they just found her daddy dead in a alley my nigga- huh? Stop bullshitting nigga- on my life, stabbed 54 times- that shit wild, he was a alright dude -I said lying. Nasty ass nigga needed to die.- let her know I send my condolences, I can't imagine that pain- I'll let her know. She been crying all morning - I said lighting the blunt.- I just left from seeing C, she taking it real bad - I would've thought Dre was the one that'll be there- that bitch ass nigga kicked her to the curb last night, he don't want the baby- I scoffed- sorry ass nigga -I replied.- ima head back and pray with her, you do the same for Alicia bro on some real shit- of course nigga- I got out and he left. I went back inside. Alicia was in the kitchen making herself some noodles. I went in there and grabbed a soda. She had my shirt on and was wrapped in a blanket. She looked back and waved at me.- how you feeling?- I'm okay, I just want to be left alone for a bit- I'll be in jade's room- I went over and rubbed her shoulder. She flinched and looked at me.- my bad- I quickly moved my hand.I just wanted her to know I'm here for her.- okay -she said in a low voice. I went up to jades room and hopped on the top bunk. She was listening to Taylor swift.- why are you in here?- she asked turning the tv down.- Alicia upset and I'm giving her space- you a bad boyfriend- girl how, she not even mad at me. Look at you stupid- whateverrr!- I decided to take a nap. I woke up bout 2 hours later. Jade's homegirls were over and being loud. I got down and left out. I went downstairs to my bathroom to take a piss. Alicia was in the shower.- you hungry?- I asked her yawning.She peeked out to look at me- no I ate already, thank you though -I finished up and shook the rest out. I washed my hands and brushed my teeth. She got out and quickly covered up.- Anthony can you please get out?- she said trembling. I nodded my head and left out. It was like this for another 5 months. She wouldn't let me look at or touch her. We was at the store when Camilla sent her pictures of the baby.- awww he's so cute -she showed me.- he a handsome lil guy -I said smiling. She was in love. We went over to Camilla's apartment after we were done. Alicia hijacked tre from her.- Anthonyyy you know what that's means - Camilla said going in the kitchen- nah I ain't ready for no baby right now- I just think she wants something to comfort her- she got me- boy get that girl a dog or something, I think Will dying fucked her up- I wanted to tell Camilla that wasn't why so bad but I bit my tongue- shit you right, I'll see if wiz homeboy got some puppies.- speaking of wiz, how is he?- he good, you want me to tell him to pull up?- please, I lost his number- I got you sis - I called wiz up- yo bro, Camilla said slide to her shit- I'm pulling up in a few, making a sale- alright nigga love -I hung up.- he ain't too far - thank you Anthony!- she replied. She went and finished the food. Wiz came knocking 15 mins later. I opened the door and greeted him.- smell good as hell in here- yo bae in the kitchen cooking- aye chill-he laughed. He came in and hugged Camilla- girl you missed me?- yesss! you been okay?- You know it, where yo lil son at?- with his auntie - she said pointing to the living room. Wiz went over- let me get him- Alicia handed tre to him. Wiz loved him already. Camilla fixed our plates and we all ate and talked. Around 7 Alicia and I were on our way out.- we'll be by tomorrow- Alicia said hugging C- please come by, I loved having y'all over - fasho, I left some shit for the baby by his crib- thank you -wiz was struggling putting tre to sleep. Camilla looked back.- let me go help him, bye y'all -we waved and left out. She closed the door and went to them. She took tre and gently patted him.- I gotta dip too, this for y'all - he placed a stack of hundreds on the counter top.- javonte it's oka- he interrupted her- take it, you and that lil nigga might need it since his daddy not stepping up- her eyes started watering. She held him tightly.- nah don't do that, it ain't nothing major. Look you and lil dude gotta rest. I'll check in with you tomorrow- bye javonte -she said wiping her eyes. Wiz was there every second he had time to be. They started growing closer and closer. And little by little wiz was moving his shit in. They were laying up watching a movie one night. Wiz was holding tre on his chest and Camilla was adjacent to him. He looked at her.- when you gone stop playing?- whenever you done being a hoe - girl you know Im tryna get with you- we grown javonte, use your words then.- I want you C- do you really? I don't have time for you to get with me and dog me out- I want you, on redd grave I wouldn't play like that- she leaned over and kissed him.- we'll see boy- wiz was smiling like a hoe. He finally got the girl he really wanted. A week wiz came by my spot. He was dropping off the baby pit I asked him bout.- damn he a beast -I said looking at it.- he a pure bred too, lil nigga gone be something- you think she gone like it?- hell yeah he cute nigga, girls love cute shit- I gave him 7 bands.- preciate it -I said. He handed the dog to me- Ima call yo ass bear - I said scratching his ears. He looked up at me with those sad ass eyes.- I might like the dog more than her- I said laughing- soft ass -wiz replied. She got home a couple hours later. When she walked in the room her mouth dropped.- you didn't!- I ain't know how else to make you feel better- she ran over and took bear, kissing me as she did.- anthonyyyy! He's adorable!- she said in a high pitched voice. This the happiest I seen her in a minute. She was busy playing with bear while I had to dog proof the room. Later that night bear was sleeping. I just finished talking to my pops and went in my room. I took my shorts off and got into bed. I was texting wiz letting him know she loved the dog. Nigga ain't reply, probably too busy playing step daddy. I put my phone on the charger and put our show on, criminal minds.- bae come on the new season just dropped- I said as I watched it. She came out the bathroom wrapped in her towel, still wet from her shower. She had her purple silk bonnet on.- you started without me? -she said pouting as she got into bed. She tossed her towel on the floor and held me, placing her head on my chest. I looked at her and rubbed her back, tracing shapes on it.
