In My Mind

Long Story Short

29 December 2021

It's been exactly 4 months since we ended things.

Today I was faced with many truths and lies that were disguised as truths..

It's easy for you. You moved on.

To my best friend, my only one, my true one. I'm sorry I did not listen to you when all you did was tell me to get away from the fire. But I went all the more in.. And look where that got me..

To my friend.. I'm sorry, I didn't trust you. I'm sorry you wished the best for me but I betrayed you by trusting the wrong one, putting your friendships in jeopardy.

To you.. I hope you're happy. You will be happy, you found yourself someone. What more could we need?
Finding that person meant you would hurt me even more, and you did..

You broke my trust in the process.

You lost me in the process.

You will never have the same 'me' ever again.

I will not be the same anymore. I look at the pieces of glass on the floor and it reminds me so much of my broken heart..

Those panic attacks I had.. All for the wrong person. You didn't deserve it but most of all, I didn't deserve it.

I deserve someone who will treat me in the best way possible..

Someone who will see past my sarcasm and find the love hidden in it..

Someone who will always put me first in his priority list..

Someone who will take care of my heart..

Someone who will not be able to stand to see a streak of tear across my cheeks..

Someone who will be loyal to me..

Someone who will see the mischief hidden when I annoy him..

Someone who will not have eyes for other girls..

Someone who will pull me into his arms at the first sight of a frown on my face..

Someone who will love me right..

For nobody ever did that..

Their version of love was a hoax.. You think it's love.. Until one day, they meet someone else and the meaning of love changes yet again for them..

Still all I wish you is the best.
Be happy.

But, I wish I'll be happier than you.

Selfish I know.
I deserve it though.

❤️

Okayyyy!

I'm well aware that the posts lately are getting way depressing.

I am going through it, so it's easy to put it in words..

If you guys can relate.. Again I'm sorry and you don't deserve that.

Sending loads of love your way! ✨❤️

- a_girl_imagines