got a bullet (with your name on it💋)

six🕯

This loving heart no longer beats
These caring lungs no longer breathe
And it's amazing how good it feels
I feel nothing at all, no, nothing at all
Everybody can watch me fall
But I'm afraid I don't care at all
It's kinda scary how good it feels

feel nothing - blind channel

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Nina's pov<3:

Lacie's finally coming home today, i'm so fucking excited to tell her. Though i did say who texted me, which she was very much shocked at, i never told her why. I laugh thinking about it.

Normally i'm used to when Lacie is gone and when she comes back, but this time was weirdly different. I really want and need her to hurry up for fuck sake, i have a massive sudden urge to tell her right now.

You know when you keep something exciting a secret for so long and you can't keep it in any longer, its just exactly like that.

I feel like an annoying, energetic child that just got a puppy for christmas, except the puppy is so extremely and brutally ugly. Yeah, i'm still so very scared to meet the whole band. Some feeling in my chest is telling me so.

I shake my head telling my self its fine.

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I quickly light up a cig, the smoke slowly blowing out of my mouth. I get lost up in my thoughts once again, telling myself that i'm up early in the morning only to tell my best friend that some guy that used to be my whole life wants me to meet him and his band. Like yeah, i love him so much, and still do but it gives me the creeps. Am i really that over exaggerating? Well, supposing to how my brain works, i guess i am.

There's a knock on the door, finally. I jump up and run to the door to un lock it, Lacie walks in with Micheal behind her, "Hey Neenar" Micheal says, "Yo" i respond with a smile "That was oddly quicker than the usual" she states putting her jacket away, "Not even a hi, bit rude Lacie" Micheal says jokingly, "Hello emo" Lacie laughs hugging me swaying side to side.

We decide pull apart just before we fall over, walking to the couch sitting down on it after laughing like ducks.

"Not gonna answer what i said?" I try not to break out crying after Lacie says that, "Yeah well i was actually going to err.. tell you, uhm"
i'm biting my nails just thinking about it, i'm guessing Lacie notices this.

"Shit. Nina?" she said scooting closer to me, "You good?" i shake my head no, Michael looks up from the chinchilla in his lap with a muffled look on his face, "Tell".

I sigh, knowing i'm most likely gonna rant. "You remember Olli yeah? Ollie Matela?" they shake their heads slowly also knowing he was my bestest friend and was my everything, "Well, he messaged me right, and well he uh, asked to meet up..." i say looking down. Lacie muffles her eyebrows basically saying 'what?' in face language or something, Micheal doing the same. I open my mouth "...and the whole band."

Lacies eyebrows raised, in shock. "Wait, okay. Yeah yeah it's a big deal to you whatever, but how are you even going to do that? Meeting them i mean." is what i get from Michael. I unlock my phone going to mine and Olli's messages, throwing it towards them to let them see it.

Lacie snatches my phone so fast i barely saw it go, she scrolls through the messages so focused not even paying attention to anything else whatsoever. She smiles every now and then reading it.

Once she finishes reading them she looks up at me, mouth agape and brows furrowed.

"You still didn't answer my quest-" "THEY WERE GOING TO PAY A PLANE TICKET FOR YOU?!" Lacie cuts off Micheal clearly surprised.

I chuckled about to say something till Lacie grabs my wrist pulling me up, going to my face "HOW THE FUCK ARE YOU SCARED YOU GROTTY BASTARD?! COME ON WERE GETTING YOU READY FOR YOU TO GO" She says about to drag me to my room "Not me, we." I say indicating i want all of them to come with me "OKAY BET NOW CMON"

Maybe it won't be so bad.

"You still didn't answer me you fucking arse!" Micheal shouts jokingly like a little kid wanting sweets, "Wer-" "THEY LIVE LIKE 10 MINUTES AWAY FROM HERE AND WE HAVE A CAR YEAH? GOT IT CLIFFORD THE BIG RED FUCKING DOG GUY? CMON" She cuts me off, damn she's excited. My head shots her way with my eyes wide when she said they live like 10 minutes away though, it scared me, exaggerating or not, that rang in my head.

She pulls my wrist, her hands already on it from before, but this time actually managing to pull me all the way to my room. She flops us on my bed, we laugh like ducks for a minute till she gets up, i sit up looking at her.

"I'm gonna get you ready bitch"

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i'm genuinely so excited for the next chapters rn.
ANYWAY,
love you💌
BYE
💋

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