𝙱𝚒𝚝𝚌𝚑, 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚜𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚎

Y/n

Ymir [V.O.]
Y/n knew who she was from a very early age. For as long as y/n could remember, everybody loved her. She never knew exactly what it was. She just knew that she had something special. Something intangible. Something immeasurable. And it gave her confidence.

That's why she loved pageantry, because you didn't have to be the prettiest, or the tallest, or the blondest, or the whitest. You just had to have fucking confidence. And she probably would have gone on to win Miss Universe. If it weren't for
this guy.

A beauty pageant coach, Marcus Cutler, was arrested on 18 counts of child molestation.

"That's it, you're done. No more pageants. This is sick." Y/n's mom says to the young y/n

Ymir: [V.O.]

Her dreams were dashed by some random 50 year old creep who didn't molest her, let alone ever meet her. She refused to eat for a week out of protest.

But then she realized how much she liked not doing anything. Y/n would never say it out loud, especially not today because everybody's so political, but she never really had any desire to have a career or job. She was just interested in doing what she did, just without school and the other bullshit.

Her mother was an esthetician, which is a fancy way of saying she gave pedicures to rich people. And her dad was a drunk who was always pretending to hold jobs longer than he did. She quickly realized that there are two kinds of people in the world. The people who sit in the chairs getting the pedicure done , with their feet in the foot bath. And the people who kneel in front of the foot bath.

She used to sit and study the women who came in where her mother worked at. She'd pay attention to what they wore and what they'd talk about. And what she realized was that none of them actually did anything. I mean, they may have had children to raise or like, homes to decorate, but at the end of the day, they literally did nothing.

They literally did nothing. And strangely, none of them had confidence. She had had a thing for Eren when she was a freshman in high school for a while before he finally asked her out. At first he was a gentleman. Like, flowers every day kind of gentleman. And he was smarter than most guys.
Plus Eren like, really loved her.

And she did love Eren at the time . She loved her relationship with Eren . She was also a really good girlfriend. Granted, she didn't always tell the truth.

"Are you a virgin?" Asked eren

Ymir : [V.O.]

Because the truth-truth is that when she was 14, on vacation in Panama City Beach, her mother let Connie go. They were best friends so they were inseparable. They were bored and wanted to try something new. They lost each other virginity's

At the time Connie had a huge crush on y/n and till this day still does. she was the one in control.

"Yeah." Y/n answered Eren's questions back

Ymir : [V.O.]

She could tell by looking in Eren's eyes how much it meant to him.

"Like fully?" He asked again
" Yeah."

Ymir : [V.O.]

That she was 100% his.

"What about, like, have you ever been fingered?" He asked a third time
"Only on my own."

Ymir: [V.O.]

Plus it's not like anyone could feel the fucking difference. But that's the thing about guys like Eren . They don't actually want a person. They want something they can own and possess. Like Sharon Stone in Casino. But the cool thing about Sharon Stone in Casino is that she ran the fuck over De Niro.

( flash back)

Y/n and eren were on her bed watching Sharon stone putting on a fur coat

"I'd fucking kill for that coat." She said as she looked back at Eren who was behind her rubbing her feet
"How much do you think it costs?"

Ymir : [V.O.]

Seriously, Sharon Stone in Casino was like, y/n's spirit animal.

She also watched a lot of porn. Not because it turned her on or anything, it didn't. But if you analyzed it really closely, there were a ton of really good secrets.

Sometimes during sex she would imagine she was a ventriloquist controlling her body, moving her hips and arching her back in just the right way. She wanted Eren to feel good about the way he fucked. Because if you make a guy feel confident and powerful... Well, they'll do anything.

(Continuation of flash back)
Eren took y/n out on a date for there anniversary. Y/n was picking out a lobster from the tank for her to eat

"That one." She pointed to a lobster
"I got you a present." Eren looked at y/n
"Really?"
"Yeah, after dinner. It's in the car."
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As they head back to the car, Eren decides to give y/n her gift.
He hands y/n the large box, as she opens it Eren looks at her face to see her reaction.

"Oh, my God, it's perfect. I fucking love you." She says as she puts on the fur coat, like the one from Sharon stone. After putting it on she gives Eren a big hug and starts to kiss him
"I fucking love you too."

Ymir: [V.O.]

She did worry about the whole monogamy thing though. It's not like she ever, cheated-cheated. Every now and then she'd find herself, in Connie's bed

Ymir : [V.O.]

But honestly, those were all times when Eren and her were on a break. Plus, Eren could be a real asshole. And sometimes, Y/n fantasized about punching Eren . But because of who he was as a person, she was afraid he'd hit her back. Especially because he was coming to terms with his sexuality.

It's like, the root of a lot of violence. And when she got home that night of the carnival , she felt sick to her stomach. Like enough to throw up. It was the violence that scared her. no matter what he did, she'd would always hate him. She had felt that way toward him for a while now.
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Ok so this was a short chapter. It's basically the back story of y/n