Life in the Friend Zone

Chapter 13- What you don't know

“Are you sure?” Kim’s frantic repetition was making me nervous. I had been back home for about a week now, and had yet to leave my apartment. In fact, Kimberly and Rachel were the only ones who knew that I was back.

Kimberly was pacing up and down while Rachel and I sat on the couch following her with our eyes. I wasn’t too sure why she was the one pacing when I was the one faced with something potentially life-changing; in all fairness, it wouldn’t only be my life that would change drastically. There were other people who would be affected too-two people to be exact, Alex and Gabriella.

“I need to talk to him,” I sighed, looking back and forth between my friends for their approval.

“That’s the right thing to do honey, but you need to confirm it first,” Rachel rubbed my back soothingly.

“No!” Kim yelled, “He doesn’t deserve to know.”

“Kimberly, He deserves to know,” Rachel rolled her eyes. Soon after that, the both of them got into a war with words. I watched them go at it for a few minutes when suddenly everything just felt so overwhelming that I broke into sobs.

In an instant, Rachel and Kimberly were by my side hugging me, rubbing my back, whispering soothing words, but none of that helped. There was a very high possibility that I was pregnant, and I wasn’t sure if I was ready to be a mom, and even if I was, this was not the way I wanted to start a family.

I had always dreamt of doing things the conventional way, which was of course getting married first and there after having beautiful babies with the love of my life, but instead I was possibly carrying my ex-boyfriend’s baby and I didn’t know how to handle it.

Once I had calmed down I looked at my friends, “I just need you guys to support me right now, that’s really all I need.” They both nodded their heads at that. “I’m going to tell him, I have to. Regardless of what happened between us, he is still the father of my baby and he deserves to know, it’s only fair.”

“Don’t you want to be a hundred percent sure that you’re pregnant before telling him? I mean, what if it’s a false alarm.” Rachel tried to reason with me.

“I know Rachel, trust me, I know. This could just be a false alarm. It could be that all the stress I’ve been under messed up my system but that’s not the case. I feel different, I don’t know how to describe it, it’s scary, but it feels good at the same time.”

I took a few deep breaths and decided to call Alex before I changed my mind. I put the call on loudspeaker for the benefit of my friends, and waited anxiously to hear his voice again.

“Hello?”

My world stopped. I literally felt like all the air had left my lungs and my body would shut down at any moment. A huge weight settled on my shoulders and the debris of my heart shattered into even smaller pieces if that was even possible.

His voice was soothing, but at the same time, it brought back a multitude of pain that I hadn’t expected, which caused me to clam up and forget the reason I called him in the first place. Kim nudged my shoulder urging me to say something.