I was working for Damon to spy on Papa Tunde, part of my job was to report everything Papa Tunde was doing back to Damon... the only problem is that Papa Tunde knew I was loyal to Damon so he was feeding me false information to test my loyalty..... the thing with that is Damon KNEW that Papa Tunde was testing me and he was moving in a way that kept me safe while also fuckin up Papa Tunde's plan. What would be call me? A double agent? A triple agent? I called it in over my head. But I was loyal to Damon, that was my first love... and even though I was over him I still felt like I owed him more than I could ever repay; he was the one nigga that held me down when I was locked up, made sure I always had money, whenever I got into some shyt he'd make sure the niggas were handled, and when I got out he made sure I had a roof over my head, a car to drive, and money in my pocket. Damon was a real one and I would never forget what he's done for me... so this Papa Tunde shyt would be handled even if I had to put a bullet in that nigga's head myself. I glanced over at my baby Calvin, a smile spread across my face that I quickly wiped away... I least I tried to wipe it away, I've heard that most relationships that happen when you first get out don't work but this felt like the real deal.... I needed some air, I got out of bed and for a second I forgot where I was then remembered that I was at Damon's, I got dressed silently before creeping out of the room and heading downstairs and out the back door.
"What y'all doing up?" I asked walking over to Damon and Manolo who were talking in harsh whispers, they looked towards me and Damon had that guilty look on his face... I always knew when he was feeling guilty about something because it was rare and his face always gave him away.
"Actually we were discussing you... Shiloh, you're one of my best friends and I'm not feeling this position I've put you in. You just got out and dealing with a dude like Papa Tunde, it's going to put you right back in jail and I don't want that for you....." Damon said and I believed every word.
"Let me guess... you feel differently?" I asked looking at Manolo. Moment of truth, I'll be honest back in the day I really didn't like Manolo; whenever Damon would bring him around I thought he was a little... soft. Like I was under the impression that if some shyt went down he was liable to start crying and if we got arrested he'd sing like a carnary.... I'll be the first to admit I was wrong, this nigga was even more solid than Damon and he had didn't have blood running through his veins, that nigga's heart pumped acid mixed with venom. I don't know when it happened or if he's always been like that but I could tell Manolo was the one you really had to worry about.
"I do...." Manolo said in a measured voice. "You're already on the inside and we're too close to this event to pull you out now... I realized the precarious situation and I know every time you're around that nigga your life is in danger but....." Manolo said and I couldn't tell if he was being sincere or not, his voice had the perfect amount of regret but there was also a hint of 'you really don't have a choice'.... I respected it.
"Do I get a say in the matter?" I asked and Damon looked like he was about to say something but nodded instead. "I agree with Manolo, I may not be in the inner circle and it's true that Papa Tunde knows that we're working together but that puts me in a unique situation." I said looking at Damon.
"And what position is this Shiloh?" Damon asked and I could tell he was irritated.
"Right now Papa Tunde is under the impression that y'all are plotting against him, which is true and he doesn't believe a single word I tell him about y'all but the best move may be to be honest with him, because he won't believe it...." I said and Damon looked at me like I was crazy.
"Lie to him by telling him the truth, knowing what kind of 'man' Papa Tunde is he'll still have safeguards in place, just in case what you're telling him is the truth.... but it would also make him trust you more... so what are you proposing? We come up with a plan that you feed to Papa Tunde, we go through with the plan, which will lead him to believe you a little bit more... from there we can move in a way that benefits us because we know what we're going to do before he does and that's the best way to catch him slippin." Manolo said.
