DESIRES

Present

Y/N was laying on her bed after a long week of work, finally having a day off. She goes through her phone and see DMs from people she didn't know, she never checked them anyway cause they were from strangers, but she did this time. 

That was a bad idea.

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TW: Explicit Language, Thoughts of Self Harm

You check one of the messages and it said, "Y/N YOU ARE SUCH A SELFISH PERSON FOR TAKING THREE WOMEN ALL FOR YOURSELF !!!" Other people said, "YOU ARE SO GREEDY, YOU DON'T DESERVE THEM AT ALL!!!!!" "YOU ARE A FUCKING WHORE!!!" "YOU SELFISH SLUT!!!" "WHO WOULD CARE ABOUT YOU!!" "BITCHHH!!"

You then see a post of the news of your relationship with the three and you looked through the comments.

"Scarlett is way out of Y/N's league, Y/N doesn't deserve her."
"Lizzie is way too pretty for Y/N, so disappointed."
"Brie can do so much better like Y/N isn't even that pretty."
"Y/N is such a GREEDY BITCH for dating these women!"
"They probably don't even like Y/N maybe they just feel bad, who would date Y/N??"
"Y/N is such a SLUT!"

As you looked through every vile, malicious, spiteful comment, tears start to flow down your face. Every comment pierced an aching pain in your heart filling your eyes with tears. You close your phone and sob your eyes out which made your pillow soaked. You felt your heart break like when you found out your parents died, that heartbreaking pain that makes you want to end everything. Your tears rushed out of your eyes making it impossible to stop crying.

You never cared about what people said, but this time it's different. They all had a point and they're right. You are selfish for being with three people, they are way out of your league. Every insecurity hit you, every comment people said to you years ago came back, and it killed you. 

You can't stop thinking about what they all said and it made you think about harming yourself. You've done it when you were younger when your parents died, but you've been clean since then. You thought about it, but you can't get the strength to get up.

You never forgot anything anyone said. You always had this pain that you carried in your heart, you just learned to live with it. For years, you hid that pain away sometimes you thought you were getting better, but "Time doesn't heal anything, it teaches you how to live with that pain."

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Brie's Pov -

We entered Y/N's house since she gave us her key but we didn't see her anywhere. We called out for her, but no one answered. Maybe she wasn't home but it's her day off. We heard faint noises coming from Y/N's room and we got worried.

We went in her room and we saw her sobbing her eyes out like she was in so much pain. We rushed to see what happened. "Y/N, baby what happened ?" She didn't answer and wiped her tears away.

"I'm fine, nothing happened." She acts like she wasn't just weeping her eyes out. "Come on Y/N, don't act like nothing just happened. Why were you crying ?" Scarlett asks as Lizzie hugs her.

"Don't worry about it, I'll be fine !" She gets out of the bed getting further away from us. "Y/N, we don't want to pressure you to tell us what happened but you can trust us." "If you'll be comfortable to tell us what happened, we will be here for you no matter what." Lizzie and I tell her.

As soon as we said that, tears start to form in her eyes some flowing down her face. She breaks down and drops to her knees on the floor. We all give her a tight but comforting hug not knowing why she was crying. It made me feel miserable not knowing why she was in so much pain.

"Shhh, we're here for you baby." Scarlett comforts Y/N as Lizzie cups her cheek while I wipe her tears.

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Y/N's Pov -

They all hug me making me feel so safe and relieved in their arms. I wanted this- I needed them but I knew what I had to do. I get up.

"I went through my DMs and there were people who sent me a lot of hate and horrible messages telling me what a selfish bitch I was for dating you three. Then I saw a post that was about us four and I checked the comments. It was filled with people who despised our relationship and thought that you all could do better and that I didn't deserve you one bit." I say lowly but loud enough for them to hear. I look at their eyes and it was filled with anger but sorrow.

"WHO THE FUCK ARE THESE PEOPLE" THEY HAVE NO RIGHT TO TREAT YOU LIKE THIS!" THEY ARE A BUNCH OF ASSHOLES, DO NOT LISTEN TO A WORD THEY SAY Y/N !" They get furious and raise their voices.

"You're right they are a bunch of assholes but they have a poin-" "NO Y/N!" "They DON'T!" Scarlett and Brie cuts me off. 

"I know you don't want to hear it but they do have a point." I say trying to hold back my tears but I see the three of them starting to tear up which made it impossible for me to not cry.

"I care so much about you three no I- I Love You all so much but I would be so selfish if I dated you at the same time." I confess as tears roll down our faces.

"Y/N, please don't do this!" "I love yo- WE Love you, don't end this" "Please Love, don't leave." They try to persuade me but I made my decision.

"I'm so sorry but I can't. You all mean so much to me and I don't want to be greedy and take you three. It would be better if we would just be friends." I cry out and sit at the end of the bed trying to keep it together.

"NO! Look at me Y/N. We all adore you so much and you mean more than you know to us - to me. You can't end what we have because of what some haters said." Scarlett leans down to look up at me. I see the desperation in her eyes begging me to stay.

"Y/N, I know you think you're being selfish because you don't want to ruin our friendship with each other but for once in your life do something for yourself." Lizzie sits beside me holding my hand. 

"I-I just can't. I don't want to demand so much from you three, I don't want to ruin your relationship with each other. I'm s-scared, I don't know what can happen in the future." I honestly say.

"Y/N, you don't have to worry about what will happen in the future. I'd rather live one day with you than a hundred tomorrows without. I treasure you so much in my life baby." Brie says as her tears flow down her beautiful face.

"I'm sorry but I c-can't." I walk out of my room going to the living room, they follow me and Lizzie grabs my arm. Kissing me as she cries begging me to not leave.

"Please Y/N, don't leave, please!" Pleading me not to go. 

"Y/N, I can't l-lose you, baby I l-love you!" Brie holds me tight not letting me go.

"N-no please NO! Don't go, d-don't. I love your heart, your generous and huge heart." "I love your beautiful face, the face that makes my day." "I love your smile that fills my heart with happiness." We Love You Y/N, we love every part of you. Your kindness, your honesty, your humility, you're everything. We LOVE YOU!" They cry out as they kiss me and put their hand on my heart. 

We all cry our hearts out, tears flowing and hearts breaking. The pain I feel is shattering every part of my heart.

"I can't do this, I'm sorry. P-please g-go." I let go and turn my back not wanting to see them leave.

I hear the door shut and even more tears come flowing like a river. I drop down and sob my eyes out. I won't be getting up anytime soon. 

"Yesterday is history and Tomorrow is a mystery, but Today is a gift which is why we call it - The Present." Live in the present.

They say to not make decisions based on your emotions but you just did. 

Was it the right decision ?

A/N - Hi lovelies :) This is very emotional, I don't know if you'll like this chapter but it'll get better. They're in the month of July when they broke up. Let me know how you feel. I was going through the book and let's just say I'll edit some parts, not major though. Have a great day ! Love L.C ♡