Grief

Denial Pt 1

He lay on the bed gripping the blanket that covered him as he looked out the window at the pink-orange sky. It still felt unusual to him even after two weeks to be in a bed again. It felt odd, the lumpy mattress, and the blankets where making him sweat. Despite the heat however he shivered, and it made him curious as to why. He turned over onto his side and pulled the blanket over his head. His dark spotted eyes drooped and slipped closed, falling into a slumber.

His back felt cold against the rotten wooden floors as his jaw was forced open by strong hands. A packet had been ripped open, the contents from inside slightly spilling from its container. The powder was poured into his mouth and water to go along with it, and his captors forced him to swallow the illegal substance, making him woozy in minutes. Pants were dropped and his legs were spread, and soon enough his ass had been split by his captors penis. He struggled against his restraints, his cries echoing through the room. Oh god, why him? He was a guy! This… this can’t be happening! A hand grabbed his dick and pumped slowly, squeezing him tightly. He groaned in pain, tears pricking his eyes.

“Stop it, please!”

Despite his pleas nobody acknowledged them and he lay there defenceless. His pride was wounded as he felt his ass being filled over and over again until his captor came, and with a sickening smirk his hair was grabbed and his head was banged against the hardwood floor, making his vision blurry. He felt his head throb as blood spilled to the floor around him, and he lay there until unconsciousness took him.

Lucy struggled as Natsu pinned her underneath him, his eyes darting from different points on her face. She had come into check on him and the minute she sat on the bed and touched his shoulder he sprang up. His hands grabbed her by the neck and he pinned her underneath him.

“N-atsu… it…Lucy…” the blonde wheezed. He ignored her, tightening his grip. His eyes gave off a distant look to them, making the blonde’s eyes widen.

“Oh my god!”

Erza pulled Natsu off Lucy, making him snap back to the present. His eyes widened as he saw her tears, red welts around her neck. Erza rushed to Lucy and hugged the woman tight, letting her cry on her shoulder. Erza glared at Natsu, making the man turn his head away.

“What the hell is wrong with you?! Where you trying to kill her?”

“No” Natsu groaned, placing his hand to his forehead. He sat down, running a hand through his hair.

God, he could have killed her!

Tears trickled from his eyes as harsh sobs wracked his thin body. He thought she was him, he thought she was trying to…to…do things to him. Lucy watched as his body shook with violent tremors. Even though he just tried to kill her, the blondes heart ached with understanding. She may not know why, but she did know he didn’t mean it. She stood up to walk over to him but Erza shot up instead, placing a hand on the dragon slayers shoulder. Boney hands gripped her shirt tightly as she was dragged into a hug. She returned it, holding the man tightly.

“I-I thought she was him. I just tried to make him s-stop”

“It’s alright Natsu, it’s okay. Your fine”

Natsu turned to Lucy, tears clouding the broken mans vision.

“I’m so sorry Lucy, I’m so sorry. I just…they…did things to me. You startled me”

“It’s…it’s alright. You scared me too”

Not as much as you did me, Lucy. Not as much as me.