Roommates with the emo

I didnt even know

Alex's pov
I'm so glad I have Jessica. She's perfect her smile, her eyes, her lips, her body. Everything is. When she laughs her nose crinkles. When she looks up from her eyelashes. Ugh god. I'm whipped. She's just so wow.
She stirred in her sleep. I looked over at the time it was 2:00 in the morning. Her breathing started to increase and before I know it she's breathing rapidity. She starts to thrash back and forth. I shot up fast and shook her. "No please don't!" She yelled. "Dad! Mom! Help!" She yelled. I shook her harder her eyes shot up and she looked at me my hard was not purposely on her thigh. She pushed me the bed. "Get off of me!" she said with fear. "Jessica no it's me, Alec!" I crocked. I stood so she could see me but she had her arms wrapped around her body sobbing into her knees. I touched her shoulder and she flinched and looked up. She looked up at me like I was an angel sent from heaven. She jumped into my arms. And cried. I rubbed circles on her back. Her breathing slowed down. "I'm so sorry you just had your hand there and I dreamed they were here. I didn't mean to push you off. I'm so sorry!" She crocked while shaking. I put at blanket around her. "I understand. Don't be sorry I shouldn't have had my hand there anyways." I said.
"No its fine it just scared me." She said quietly. "Can we sleep together still or are you afraid I'll do it again?" She asked. "Of course we can I'll be here if you have anymore dreams." I cooed.
The next morning I went to take a shower while Jessica slept.
Jessica's pov
I woke up and was so tried I went to use the bathroom. I opened the door and Alec stood fully undressed. My eyes scanned his body and 8pack,toned arms, an wow my eyes bulge out to see he has a huge- "JESSICA!" I looked up and noticed he grabbed a towel cover up and tied it low on his waist. Omg I was staring at his... my hands flew to my mouth and turned and ran out shutting the door. Shit. Shit. Shit. He saw me looking. Omg I'm so dead. I hide my face in my pillow. I heard the bathroom clicked open. With a misty warm air come out. "Care to explain why you just stood there!" He said with an expression I couldn't explain. "I-I um had to go to the bathroom and didn't realize you were in there." I was beat red I just know it. "You just stood there looking!" He said while pink came to his cheeks. then mumbled something incorrherit. "Don't.do.it.again.Ok? He said with harshness in his eyes in voice. "What's so bad so what if I saw it and it's huge! You have a nice body I don't see what's wrong! Yeah sure I shouldn't have looked but I did it in glad I did! " I said breathless.
"Don't do it again." He said.
"Whatever. I'm going out." I said.
And was walking though the door to go done the hall to one friend I met. A hand pulled me back. "What do you want! I'm sorry I looked at you and your thing ok It won't happen again I'll make sure it's doesn't if your gonna act like this!" I said with eyes tearing up from him and me being mad. I yanked my hand back and continued walking. He didn't chase me that time. I walked to her room. When I got in I busted to tears Rachael held me and hugged me. She asked me what happened and I explained. "I don't understand that." She said confused. "Me too." I mumbled. "Can I stay the night here?" I asked. More like begged. "Of course go get your stuff! girls night!" She said while clapping her hands really fast. I sighed and walked to my room door I slowly turned the knob. And notice that he wasn't here. I think he was in the bathroom I tried to be super quiet and I reached back for my phone charger which was my last thing to grab. I reached and my elbow hitched back and my lamp fell over with a loud crash. The door immediately opened and Alec stood with a tooth brush in his mouth. He made eye contact with me I just turned to walk out he quickly spit and wiped his mouth with his long sleeve. Which he always wears weird huh? Even when it's like 90 degrees out I just thought he didn't want to get sunburned. "Jessica wait!" He yelled running to me. I quickly opens the door but I was slammed shut. "Alec let me go!" I said my voice calm. " Where are you going?" He asked.
"My friend dorm I'm staying there for the night." I could tell her had a hurt expression. "Looked in sorry I yelled at you about looking at me its just ugh!" He said. "It's what?" I said calm knowing he was going to say something. he grabbed his sleeve an hesitantly pulled it up. I looked down to see at least 20 cuts on his arms he pulled the other up and there was more. My eyes watered. "That's why I didn't want you to see me. You'll think there ugly. And I wanted you to stay my girlfriend. And want a perfect boyfriend not one that wanted to kill himself!" He finishes. I didn't say anything. I grabbed my phone and called Rachael. "Hey Rachael I'm not coming to night bye maybe another time." I said not breaking eye contacted with Alec. I walked over to him and pulled his wrist and kissed his wrist. And did that to the other. "I really like you and seeing you In this state kills me. I don't care you have scars everybody does "I pulled my sleeve and showed mine which were only at little . my eyes started to tear up and so did his. "Why do you do this!" He demanded. Grabbing my wrist. "Same reason you do. Hurt.alone.worthless. Shall I go on?" I said
He pushed me on the bed and...

Wow sorry long chapter!
-C✌️