EMOTIONS

ONE): I HATE THIS PLACE..

Listen to Lost boy by Ruth B....

I open my eyes the sound of a door banging. All I could see was green. The grass was green, the buildings were green. Hell, even the people were green. Or maybe it was just my eyes. I just arrived at school. My new school. My new boarding school. I will start all over again. Right from the beginning. I had done to junior year at a private school but Mum says I learnt nothing throughout.

So here I am, in a car that brought me to school. I'd slept throughout the ride here, having bawled my eyes out. When Mom and Dad first mentioned the news of my admission, I'd thought I could do better than to just cry messily.

It wouldn't be the first time I was leaving home so why couldn't I do it again. It's just........this wasn't the same.

I was going to a place I knew no-one. Mom says one of our neighbours' daughter is a senior here but I do not know her and she doesn't know me either.

It was fearful and heartbreaking that I was going to a place of no familiarity. And God knows how disheartening humans can be. I feel tears gather in my eyes and blink rapidly to hide it. I don't want Dad shouting at me. He's left work today to drop me in school and even if I might be his favourite child, there was still no room for misbehavior.

I come down reluctantly from the car and immediately help Mom with my bags from the trunk. It felt like I was being sold out to some sort of society seeing as Mom had packed five weighty bags for me.

It was filled with so many things, some of which I found irrelevant, like sanitary pads I hadn't even started menstruating yet. We make our way to the administration section with Mom being the leading factor.

Getting there, I was met with a fat lady who didn't look in any way pleased see me. The expression on her face made me want to cry but once again I did not want Dad shouting at me.

Mum and the fat lady exchange words and in no time, I find myself in front of an office that reads boldly 'OFFICE OF ADMISSION', this time around only Mum and I go in with dad and my little brother staying behind at the reception area. An equally fat but more appealing woman sits us down, wearing a smile that showed off her gap teeth. I felt a bit more comfortable by her so I gave a tight-lipped smile in return.

"Good afternoon to you", she greets in general to both mom and I.

"Good afternoon Madam", Mom greets back, same time looking at me silently demanding that I greet the lady too. I lower my head in defeat and repeat after Mom. "Good afternoon Madam".

She smiles like nothing just happened and I let out a hiccup unintentionally but quite irritably. It doesn't go unnoticed by the two elders in the room but they also didn't react to it. Mum looks at her blankly and the other elder pretends to put her table in order. It looked pretty arranged to me so I figured that was just a quick rescue to avoid the awkwardness.

"So....you're part of our newly admitted right?", The lady asks after about a minute or two. I look dumbly at her and she raises her brows at me, looking simultaneously at Mom and I.

"She's talking to you Angel", Mom says to me. I open my mouth to talk but close it immediately as nothing seemed to come forth. I just didn't want to be here and I guess all my senses are acting up.

"Yes Ma, she's newly admitted", Mom answers on my behalf.

The lady nods in understanding. "Okay, since you're not a transfer student, I'm assuming this is going to be your first experience as a boarder, is that right?" She inquires.

I nod my head as to say yes to her.

"Good. So I'm going to take a little of my time to brief you of the happenings  here".