he makes me reign

sad

Romans pov

It's been a month since she left.
I haven't felt happiness since her little sassy performance she did for me.
The moment she said she had a movie deal..I knew she was going to have to leave.
And I can't have her back. She was born for this shit. I want her to have everything she deserve and take every opportunity that's thrown her way.
I can't wait to see her movie. She's going to be amazing. I can't wait to be by her side here..walking her down red carpets. I'll be joining the press taking photos of her. Cause damn..she's just gorgeous.
She's gonna win Oscar's. And I'm so excited for her.
Go little rockstar..

The third time she stayed with me. I took a photo of her that I never showed. It's my Lock Screen.  I miss her..

Isn't she just the prettiest little thing you've ever seen?..

Jey: "yo uce, you good?"

I was sat on my sofa in my office with my hood up laid back.

Roman: "what do you think?"

Jey: "hey man, it's ight man. She's coming back"

I just looked at him.

Jimmy: "hes lost his girl man. Damn."

Jey: "but she's coming back bro, it's all good uce"

Roman: "she's not here right now jey. And she won't be back with me another 11 months. I'm married to a girl that I have had sex with less times than I have with ja5myne, my wife is threatening to take Kayley away if I even breath near a woman..damn I have a kid and I'm fucked over for life man. I love Kayley..with all my heart. But I just.."

Jimmy: "you just wish ja5myne was her baby momma"

I looked down at the floor. And sighed.

Roman: "yeah man."

Jey: "shit uce..I didn't know you was in the middle of all this right now"

I didn't say anything.

Jimmy: "I think you need to call things off with her"

Roman: "I can't. She'll never let me see Kayley again"

Jey: "I don't mean to sound cold but uce..you never see her anyway cause you're always running around the States with us man. And when you're home you see her. So what would the difference be?"

I looked at him thinking.

Jimmy: "I hate to say it man but he's right. Obviously you'll have to go to court anyway. So there will be scheduled times to see her"

Roman: "she'll do everything in her power to completely take her out of my life."

Jey: "Kayley ain't going nowhere uce!"

Jimmy: "come on uce, we gotchu. If worst comes to worst, she can stay with our momma"

Roman: "I love you guys..you know that right."

Jey: "we family uce. We love you man. We gotchu"

I started to cry a little.
I wiped my face and stood up.

Roman: "ight, I gotta get ready for this"

Jimmy: "you gonna talk on the mic this week? It's been 4 weeks and you haven't said a word Paul's been doing all that"

Roman: "I just..I don't know what to say"

Jey: "you spoke to her since uce?"

Roman: "yeah, we call when she gets the chance. And you know time zones so, it gets a bit difficult. We text a lot but it's just not the same."

Jey: "I know uce. I know"

Roman: "I'll think of something"

Jimmy: "you got this man..see you in the lights uce"

I smirked.

Roman: "see you in the lights man" we safed as I shut my office door.

*PHONE PINGS*

You: "Hey baby, I'm missing you more than ever. I'm getting ready to bed now. Today was along one..I'm just happy to be in bed. I know you're about to go out there soon. I can't bring myself to watch you yet but I've heard that you're not looking so good mentally out there. I just hope you're okay and I want you to know that I feel you. My dad wants to go sight seeing and I just want to stay in bed on my days off. It's getting hard. I just miss laying on your chest in your arms in my safe place..x"

A smile creeped over my face seeing her name. It made my heart race.

Roman: "hey gorgeous. Yeah, im not coping without you. Everyday is a struggle to bring myself to talk out there. I've just got nothing to say. I miss your little body in my arms against my chest. I just wanna hold you tight some more. I hope you're okay baby girl. I miss you with all of me x"

You: "I miss you roman😭I want to come back to you so bad x"

Roman: "I miss you my little baby..I just want you back☹️x"

You: "I'm working extra hard to get it done. I love bray, I love London. But nothing feels like home without you there with me x"

Roman: "a massive part of me left when you did. I just feel empty when I'm not with you. Especially 7,000 miles away x"

You: "it hurt me..to get on that jet..but it's a fucking awesome film, I'm so excited for it to be done and for you to see it!x"

Roman: "I cannot wait to see it. I'll watch it 20 times anyway. Just because you're in it x"

You: "I love you..how's things with your wife?x"

Roman: "I wanna talk to you over the phone about that..but don't worry baby girl. I'm all yours. I haven't seen her since I left her at tammys x"

You: "Kayley all good? X"

Roman: "she's doing good. I'm picking her up in the morning and I'm thinking of just bringing her along with me for a few months x"

You: "that's a brilliant idea! And I guarantee she'll have the time of her life x"

Roman: "I'll FaceTime you when you get the chance so you can talk to her x"

You: "yes please! I'll make time for that for sure x"

Roman: "I love you beautiful. Now rest that little head and message me when you wake up x"

You: "I love you roman. Of course I will x see you in the lights uce, you got this💪🏼x"

Roman: "thank you little uce x good night precious x"

You: "good night baby xx"

I took my shirt off and added conditioner to my hair and added oil to my body.

Roman: "ight..here it goes"

I grabbed my belt and headed for the stage.