vinnie hacker (sad/toxic)

not ready

tw: sexual/consent

me and vinnie have been doing great :)! he has been so nice and sweet i sometimes feel bad for vinnie. he has a girlfriend  that wont even let him really touch her i mean if vinnie touches my legs i already feel disgusted i love him sure ye. but not in that way ig? i just feel disgusted by the idea of men and doing IT! i wish i just didnt exist i know vinnie wants to.....UGHHH.

vinnie: hey can we talk?

y/n: uhm i actually have to meet one of my friends rn so later?

vinnie: uh- its just a little talk!

y/n: sorry vin

vinnie: okay whatever

y/n: okay bye

OUR BBF IS ADDISON RAE! I JUST THINK SHE WOULD BE A GOOD BESTIE SO YE :)

i was so happy that i  could leave the house for a minute and i didnt wanna talk about whatever vinnie wanted to talk about tbh! i just wanted rest so i was gonna hang out with my bestie addi!!!! yesssss i mean i havent seen her in a year becuase of vinnie but i wont tell addison that i mean addi loves me and vinnie toghether i dont wanna ruin that :(

y/n: omg addi!!!!

addison: omg hey babes!!

y/n: ahhh i missed you! 

addison: uhg same!

me and addi walked to a close by icecream shop we were talking and talking and talking she has a new boyfriend! omgg she says he treats her great i am so happy for her eek! i just couldnt anymore i should tell someone but i cant.......i just cant. i said bye to addi and took a uber home. on the way there i just started crying. i had a lot of trauma growing up being over sexualised and yea things happend. i just wanted to hug vinnie and tell him i am sorry. i got out of my uber and knocked on vinnie's door.

vinnie: oh hey babe *smiles*

y/n: vinnie i am so sorry *hugs him*

vinnie: whats wrong? *hugs me back*

y/n: everything

vinnie: oh.......did i do something?

y/n: idk..did you vinnie?

vinnie: idk?

me and vinnie went to bed we didnt talk much but he would just smile at me i will just smile back ig. i made everything so akward and vinnie didnt even ask me whats going on! i bet he thinks i am grazy. i just couldnt sleep and neither could vinnie we were both very nervous about what we were gonna say ig?

y/n: vin?

vinnie: mhm? 

y/n: can we talk?

vinnie: uhm yea

y/n: okay so uhm-

vinnie: you can tell me anything y/n

y/n: okay so becuase of my trauma i dont have sexual feelings to men and i feel like you are                     pressuring me and i didnt wanna tell you but i hate pressure.

vinnie: uh oh i though you were gonna break up with me. damn y/n are you okay?

y/n: no thats why i ruiend my whole day with addison!

vinnie: no like about the trauma thing?

y/n: i dont wanna talk about it 

vinnie: thats fine * hugs you*

OKAY SO THIS WAS UHM OKAY NEXT PART IG PURRR