Tortured Within (Kellic)

Chapter Two

Chapter Two-

Vic's point of view, the day before The World Tour

"Hey Vic! It's Mike, just wanna remind you, tomorrow's the start of the World Tour with Sleeping With Sirens. I know you already know and all, but just wanted to remind that we're coming to pick you up tomorrow, and we're picking up Kellin too... Well, I gotta go, Alysha's callin', see you tomorrow Vic!" And then the message went dead. I had gotten that call from Mike in the afternoon, it was now almost one in the morning, and I was still up, thoughts about tomorrow, well today, were running through my head. Why we picking up Kellin? Why couldn't he ride with his own band? Not that I wasn't happy about that. No, I was really glad that he was riding with us. But I couldn't help but wonder why.

Kellin Quinn, the lead singer of Sleeping With Sirens, was my best friend and had been since that day in 2012 whenever we first met. But ever since that day, not only has he been my friend, but my crush. Ever since I laid eyes on that man with the beautiful green and blue eyes, with the perfect smile, and the perfect laugh. Since I met the man who seemed all around perfect. The man who was married and straight.

Kellin Quinn would never like me the same way I liked him, and I'm learning to accept that. Mike's one of the only ones who know about my feelings for Kellin, however, refuses to accept that. Which is why he's probably the reason Kellin is riding with us. He wanted something to happen between me and Kells on this tour, which is exactly what he told me. "Maybe he'll be the one to help you with your depression, you know, bee your knight in shining armor ." He had said. Kellin would never be my knight in armor. No one would be. No one was going to save me from this depression I found myself in. As much as I wish Kellin was my knight, I knew it wasn't going to happen. Kellin was married to Katelynne, and in love with her. He would never leave her for someone like me. It just wasn't something I could ever see Kellin doing.

He was absolutely in love with her, and I, was absolutely meant to be alone. No one was going to want me, especially when I was in love with another man. Nobody wanted to deal with that.

Kellin was never going to fall in love with me, no matter what Mike did to make him. He was straight, just like everyone else in our bands, but me. I was the odd one out. Honestly though? I had no idea if I was gay or bi or whatever. Kellin was the first guy I had ever had feelings for. Ever since that day that I had met him, I had been questioning my sexuality.

I sighed, looking up at the ceiling in my room. I really got lost in my thoughts. Some people said I think too much about the bad things. Yeah, that was true, but it wasn't anything I could help. I was already use to the way I thought, hell I was 31 now, I should be use to the way I think by now. I groaned, rolling over in my bed, shutting my eyes. I needed to sleep. The guy was were coming to pick me up around 10 tomorrow, and I still had a few last minute things to pack up.

The next day, 9:32

I groaned, opening my eyes as the sound of my alarm woke me up. Despite some of the situation, I was excited to start touring again, getting to see the fans and all. Performing was one of the few things left in the world that made me feel alive. The only downside of this tour, was dealing with Kellin.

I got up, turning off the alarm that was going off on my phone repeatedly, before checking the time. 9:35. Shit, I was supposed to be up at 9 so I could be ready to go by now! Quickly, I turned on the shower, stripping down in a hurry.

After I was done with my shower, I got dressed in some jeans and a t shirt, before walking back into the bathroom so I could fix my hair. Despite everything, I wanted look nice for Kellin, even if he didn't like me. I fixed my hair as fast I could, not bothering to look in the mirror. I didn't want or have too. I hated looking at myself in the mirror. It only made me hate myself even more.

Sighing, I walked out of the bathroom with my bathroom things when my hair was fixed, going into my room, so I could finish some last minute packing.

By the time I had finished packing, it was almost 10. I sighed, grabbing my bag and looking around my room one more time before I left for a few months. Let's just say, I don't go out as much as I probably should, and I spent so much time in this room most days. On occasion, the guys would come over and try to pull me out of the house, but that was only occasion. Only my bandmates knew about my problems. And I didn't plan on telling Kellin anytime soon.

The moment I sat down on the couch, the doorbell went off, signaling that my bandmates were here. Groaning, I reluctantly got off the couch, grabbing my bag. I was excited to go on this tour, but I just had some sinking feeling that something big would happen, what, I wasn't at all sure. I wasn't even sure if it was going to be a good thing or not.

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Hi! Ok, so, reason I haven't updated in a while; I've been working on my other stories and I wanted to wait till I finished a story to start this one. Yes. I Can Save You has ended officially now :( I started a spinoff for that book, The Other Side, which I will be focusing on. But I just wanted to get this all set up. The next chapter is when the book REALLY begins. These past two chapters have been really the intros. :) Comment, vote, like, and worry about the future of Kellic!