Secrets | Kiribaku | Bakugou Angst

Chapter 16- Break down

Bakugou's POV:

I fall to my knees, shaking and sobbing.

What's wrong with me? Why can't I just be happy...

'Just forget about the problems and they will go away'

God I wish old man was right about that...I wish I could just forget my problems I wish they would just go away...

The cold breeze fills the room and I cling into Kirishima's jacket, still on my shoulders. My body curls into a ball as I stare at the wall, my vision blurred from my tears.

Why can't I just love myself too

I shouldn't be in a relationship until I get myself together...

I had such a good day why can't I be happy...why can't I be proud of myself..why am I scared?

What am I so afraid of?

I hear my pillow fall to the ground, reach and grab it tightly, hugging as if my life depends on it.

I wish I just knew..knew if I was actually depressed, if I actually have anxiety

Am I just faking it? I just want attention, I'm just being dramatic

I'm so dramatic

I feel sick in the stomach, not sick...like I have butterflies but worse. Like I'm really nervous but about nothing...

What am I so worried about? Why do I always feel like this..I'm fine I'm fine there's nothing to worry about...

There's always something to worry about

I always find a way to worry about something

My sobs because louder and so do my gasps. The harder I cry the less time I have to breath.

I look down to my hand and pinch my skin as hard as I can, wanting to bang my fist on the wall.

Deep breaths, deep breaths

As soon as I start to calm down a bit I start crying harder. Thoughts storming into my head.

I'm not good enough

Villian

Monster

You don't deserve love

What did I do to deserve this body? I only hurt it, I make myself suffer because im so hard on myself.

Why can't I just be actually nice

*knock knock*

My heart starts pounding and I sit up right, tears still streaming down my face as I try to control my breathing.

"Hey Kat, can I come in?"

I look to the mirror, not recognising myself. My eyes are puffy, my hairs a mess, my clothes crinkled.

I wipe the tears off my face and fix my hair.

"Kat? I know your in there please let me in this time!"

"O-one second I'm getting changed!" I yell out, trying to hide the pain in my voice.

I quickly run to my closet and grab my pyjamas and change, running back to the door and opening it with a creak.

"H-hey.."

"Hey Suki....are you alright?" Kirishima questions.

"Yeah im fine, what are you doing here?" I ask.

"Are you sure?" He says walking into my dorm, " you look like you've been crying..you know you can tell me right?"

"Yeah yeah I know...I'm just- I'm alright"

"Ok, I like your pyjamas, very cute" he complements as he sits on my bed.

I look down to my light blue pjs, with little cartoon drawings of all might patterned on the shorts and bold text saying 'I am here!' in the middle of the shirt.

"Oh...I- that's embarrassing.." I pout.

"Hey! No it's not it's just me. I was wondering if I could sleep here tonight?" Kiri questions.

"Wait really?"

"...yeah if that's ok"

"Yeah that's fine, I...like your company" I mutter and he giggles.

I look to my clock reading 9:46 and he follows my gaze.

"Yeah it's late your usually asleep by now right?" Kiri teases.

"Oi! Shut up!" I retaliate

"Haha sorry, come here let's go to sleep"

I walk over and get pulled into the bed, on top of Kiri's chest.

"K-kiri" I say with a blush, lifting my head to face his.

"Call me Eijiro"

"...eijiro" I repeat and burry my head into his neck. He wraps his arms around me, holding my tight to his chest.

"Hmm?"

"Goodnight" I whisper, lifting my leg to the side and closing my eyes.

"Goodnight love"
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Heheheheh felt sad so wrote my feelings to feel better and added some kiribaku to lighten the mood. Wishing I had someone to lighten my mood but anygays- hope you enjoyed <3

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