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"I thought, maybe you could love me like you use to.... Even though I'm, different. But you changed too... So here's to the new us."
When Vi leaves and Jinx is left with nothing but her thoughts and to wallow in what she had done, that is where she is at her most vulnerable. And in that moment, what she needed was for someone, anyone, to be there with her in that moment; which is why she is so eager to seek comfort from Silco, being totally dismissive of the fact that he had only previously attempted to kill her family. Because to her, all that matters is that someone is there with her. So when he embraces her, tells her it's alright, she's already fully attached herself to him. Her family is dead, Vi seemingly left, but now she has Silco. A new figure that she immediately attaches herself to.
Later on in the series, Jinx is shown trying to over compensate for things that Powder couldn't do. From her flashy art to her overly immaculate bombs. She tries to fit the role she gave herself, tries to grow into her new name. She doesn't want to be Powder anymore, doesn't want to be weak, and doesn't want to carry around the burden of her past mistakes. But she can't get rid of Powder, no matter how hard she tries.
Powder signifies all of her past traumas, her past mistakes. She lost her family because of Powder, lost Ekko because of Powder, lost Vi because of Powder. Powder jinxed her life and took away any possible source of happiness she could've had. And because of that fact, Jinx could never truly lose Powder, and that is simply because everything that Powder did will forever haunt Jinx. From the voices in her head to the realistic visions haunting her at every corner. Every mistake Powder made is what created Jinx.
And Jinx, for everything she's become, never actively tried to better herself. Instead she tries to downplay what she experienced. Busying herself with her bombs, and pushing away all of what she felt, trying to be someone she wasn't.
When she reunites with Vi, she isn't angry that she 'left', instead she's relieved. Relieved that Vi still loved her enough to come back, relieved that Powder didn't truly ruin her relationship with her sister. But then Caitlyn shows up, and every insecurity, every doubt she had seemingly forced herself rid of, comes back tenfold. She was replaced, forgotten, unloved. All by her own flesh and blood. And so, everything becomes a bit too much for her. Reeling from the fact that her sister is now working with an enforcer, Powder momentarily takes over to affect Jinx's judgement. Using Mylo's voice, someone who played such a huge role in the creating of Jinx, to whisper to her. To snap her already fickle mind. Crying to her about how she was replaced, about how Vi was so desperate to get rid of her that she chose an enforcer.
And thus started Jinx's hatred towards Caitlyn.
Jinx's hate towards Caitlyn is obviously misplaced. She freed her sister from prison, allowed them to reunite and was willing to turn a blind eye to the carnage Jinx caused, because she truly believed Vi could get through. But in the same way a jealous child would think, Jinx's state of mind is too broken to allow her judgement to be clear. Caitlyn was evil. She stole Vi, the one thing that had been keeping Jinx alive for so long. And it didn't help that her insecurities of replacement and previous abandonment, were already pushed by both Sevika and Silco. Sevika had already warned her, she had told her Vi replaced her and yet she didn't listen. And Silco, all those years of him taking care of her, he had constantly told her that she was bound to be betrayed. That Vi could never truly love and accept her for who she was as Jinx.
And he was right.
When Jinx held her tea party, and give Violet a choice to choose between an enforcer or her sister, she chose the latter. When Jinx has another one of her breakdowns, Vi doesn't try to calm her down, she uses it as an opportunity to try and get back Powder. Not caring how much it hurts Jinx.
Silco was the only one who never saw her as Powder, as a walking mistake. He saw her as Jinx, he saw her as perfect, even in his dying moments. And it is in those dying moments that he excuses every mistake she had ever made. All the wrong she had done. He doesn't curse her, doesn't use his final breaths to hurt her like Vi, instead he compliments her, shows his love to her one last time. And it is in that moment that she fully embraces Jinx. She doesn't get rid of Powder, doesn't push her down a well. She simply takes control, finally being the one in charge.
