Forever With Us

Chapter 9: Climbed Your Window

Taking my shoes off I hurry upstairs as soon as possible without getting noticed by my parents. In seventeen years of life, this is the first-ever time that I'm going to sneak out of the house and it's driving me crazy. I have no idea what will happen the moment my parents find out about this but life is all about risks, isn't it?

"Sweetie you are here"mom talks behind me

I froze on my steps thinking about how I will face her. I know it's not like I'm going to do a crime or something that I should be this much worried about but I have never lied to my mom before and even if I try to my face will show it.

"Yeah mom just came now" I tensely smile at her

I can't help but feel guilty the more I stand and see her face. She is already facing lots of things with my dad and here I am lying in front of her.

"Are you alright honey?" she asks

"Oh yeah mom I'm fine" I start to fidget with my fingers

I don't know why I always start to fidget with my fingers when I feel nervous or anxious. I do this a lot in front of Ash. He makes me nervous as hell that I want to hide from his sultry gaze.

"But you seem off. Is there any problem?" she questions me 

"Oh no everything is alright just another tiring day at school nothing to worry"I give a small smile

"Ok then I think maybe you should eat and take some rest," she says

"Umm, where's dad ? is he back?" I try to change the subject

"He is not here yet maybe he will be late as always" she sighs

I really want them both to act as normal as they used to be. Even though I'm not really sure what's happening between them or their problem, as their kid I want my parents to be happy. Isn't that all children want? A happy peaceful family instead of egoism, toxic and problematic...

"Okay mom I will change and come downstairs "I smile

" Do you want me to make anything for you or pancakes are fine? she asks

"I think pancakes are fine mom" I can already smell the luscious smell

"Ok then go and change your clothes and come downstairs," she says

"Ok mom,"I say

I start to walk upstairs again "And honey you do remember that I am always here for you right? No matter what I love my daughter and you can share anything with me"

She smiles at me and before I could respond to her, she walks away. I stand there timidly for a moment then carry myself to my always welcoming room. I open my room and welcome by my room's comforting scent. I don't about others but my room always smells like me. Don't ask me what I smell like because I don't know it either maybe a rotten fish is also possible but that's not the point, the thing is that I always feel comfortable and pleasant when I enter my room. It's like I can forget everything and lay here all day.

I flick my peach blinds open allowing the natural sunlight to shine blazingly to my room. I then plop onto my squashy bed exhaustingly. Today will be a very tiring and anxious day for me because of the party thing. I have never been to a party before except for my four years old cousin's birthday party that I attended ages ago.

I still remember I wore a red knee-length dress with matching red shoes and my hair was braided on one side. That's what I know about parties and stuff but going to a teen party where numerous high school teens gather with alcohol and all is very new to me. I should really blame my parents because they never let me to any parties before as I said earlier