jealous? (Sebastian x Darren)

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sebs pov:

*the next day*

Last night we had all fallen asleep in kanes room it wasn't very comfortable as there was 7 of us in 1 bed but it was worth it because I got to cuddle with darren again.

When I had woken up this morning I was expecting him to already have left the bed but it turns out me,him and regie were the only ones still asleep and I know I should've probably gotten up and woken them but instead I layed back down and continue to sleep in his arms, I know it was stupid of me to continue cuddling him but I couldn't help it and the fact that he now has a girlfriend I feel like he may slowly forget about me

*

which is basically happening right now we were all getting ready to go somewhere to film our new YouTube video and she just has to join us at the last minute...of course everyone agreed to let her come she's the sweetest person ever and she makes darren happy,they're good for eachother

but I wish it was me and him instead...wait maybe I shouldn't think like that it makes me feel selfish and guilty.

I even felt guilty before he started dating her for wishing that something would happen between us and for a while I used to think he liked me too but I guess I was just being dumb

"Hey seb are you okay?" Darren asked walking over to me, everyone else was in the two cars staring at me which made me realise that I was probably lost in my thoughts again, I smiled at him and nodded,he smiled back. He looked so pre-

wait I should stop thinking that way now that he has a girlfriend right?

"Let's go then" he then pulled me into the car with him, oli and ty were in the front while me darren and amelia in the back...Great

the other car had bae and regie in the front justin,kane and Ryan in the back I had no idea were we was going to film the video but I just hoped that it would be fun and quick to get there so I could get out of this car.

when we set of I glanced to the side at darren who was in between us and an uncontrollable smile formed its way on my face as I watched him singing the song that was playing and was struggling with the lyrics,others may find this annoying but I thought it was cute in a way but after a while my smile was soon replaced with a blank face as I watched amelia rest her head on Darren's shoulder

I'm not 100% sure but I think what I was feeling right now was jealousy or maybe it was guilt still?

the feeling of guilt because I'm in love with someone else's boyfriend who's also my straight bestfriend although sometimes I wonder if he's really straight because of how he acts sus all the time like it's a daily job or something It might just be bromance or something like that...but still what happened between us yesterday was still questionable...and the thought that if I hadn't have pulled away maybe he might have actually kissed me never seemed to leave my head

I realised I must have been staring at them for too long When amelia had glared at me and pulled darren closer to her which made me roll my eyes and sigh loudly looking out the window

but not even a minute later I felt a tap on my shoulder and someone moving closer close to my ear "what's wrong sebby" Darren's soft voice was enough to make me feel nervous especially since he was so close to me

I mumbled a little "nothing" without even bothering to look at him. Did he know I like him? Does she know? Why else is she glaring at me...

I might have exposed myself a little the other night saying he makes me feel things but he probably didn't catch on to that

he made a dramatic gasp "are you guys seeing this seb is ignoring me" everyone ignored him as this was just Darren being his usual dramatic self

I then felt a hand on my thigh which made me shiver a little at his touch and hesitantly turn around to meet his eyes "now you're not ignoring me" he grinned

I looked down at his hand that was still on my thigh and then towards amelia who wasn't resting on darren anymore but was instead looking out the window next to her

"I wasn't even ignoring you in the first place I answered you" I said staring ahead making sure I wasn't looking at him or amelia...i didn't want to be glared at again she's really intimidating, but then again I didn't want to look at darren I'm too awkward for that so I turn around to face the window again but darren had stopped me by placing his hand gently on my jaw and making me look up to meet his eyes similar to last night "you're supposed to look at me while I'm talking though" he whispered

I had no idea if he was flirting,teasing or if he was angry at me again but I do know that I was starting to blush so I had no choice but to pull his hand away and quickly turn around he just laughed at that and placed his hand back on my thigh while looking forward.

***

After about 30 minutes we finally got there I was the first to get out and go to the others, the awkwardness had killed me in that car and I hope I don't have to sit with him when we go back

when we got there I had finally realised where we was...at an abandoned mall..

Amelia gasped really loudly when we entered the abandoned building and clung onto Darren's arm "Woah is it really abandoned" she asked, he mumbled a small "yeah" i laughed i was the only one who knew he was scared of places like this but now the others were about to find out soon aswell
***
we had been filming the video and some tiktoks for a while which was pretty fun, we were now exploring the place a little more and just then out of nowhere darren came running towards us saying "I heard something I heard something" and jumped into my arms of course I caught him and said comforting words to him like "don't worry man it's okay I'm here" or "there's nothing there " which seemed to have calmed him down so I then let go of him and held his hand instead keeping him close to me which everyone seemed to notice

I think everyone must've thought it was a joke but I was happy knowing he trusted me that much by letting me comfort him all the nerves and guilt from earlier had disappeared because even though I'm in love with him and won't get the chance with him it's nice to know he trusts me still