Xoxo - y/n Carter

22. Dear Diary

16th of april, 2012
Dear diary
It's time today, i'm gonna do it. Today is the day i become a super soldier just like Steve. I just can't believe that it's already been three months of testing and training. I'm not sure i can even sit still in wait for the next seven hours. Steve was over for breakfast and we're gonna train a little around lunch. Natasha is literally going through my closet for anything that she can steal, since the serum is gonna up my size a bit she can take it all. And i can tell that under that facade of hers, she's worried about me. But it's the right thing to do, i mean, otherwise we only have two superheros that can save us if anything happens. Well, three if you count Nat. Four if you include me, as people will now.
Wish me the best of luck and when i write here again i will never be the same.
Xoxo y/n Carter

29th of april, 2012
Dear diary
God, i've been so distracted by this, the constant training with Steve and balancing that with the job at Stark industries i'm not sure i can take it. I'm not regretting my choice, it was the right thing to do. If not for myself then for everyone else. Mom wasn't happy about that and dad hasn't said a word to me yet. Grandma is at least proud of me, said i reminded her of when she was young. Or well, she thought i was her when i told her everything. I like to believe that she understands what i'm saying and knows that i'm there even though the doctors say she doesn't. And another reason to why i don't regret it is because i got to met Maria. Right i haven't written about her yet, well she's this agent at SHIELD that i can't keep my eyes off. I even told Peggy about her and she just told me to go after whatever it is I wanted. Problem is, i don't even know what i want right now.
Xoxo y/n Carter

2th of May, 2012
Dear diary
Don't have much time now, it seems like some god has attacked or some shit. I'm on the jet to the helicarrier with Steve and Coulson. I'm surprised he hasn't asked Steve to sign his collector cards, they're vintage you know. But all i know is that Dr Bruce Banner is gonna help us track this god down, that Natasha is waiting for me on the helicarrier with Clint. Gotta go now, so wish me good luck for my first mission to save the world.
Xoxo y/n Carter.

9th of May, 2012
Dear diary
They're dead, they're both gone and the last thing i did was yell at them. Loki attacked the city with an army of aliens and my parents got stuck in they're loft. I saw them get crushed by that creature and i'm pretty sure i met my mothers gaze. Tony is trying to get me out of my room but i don't want to, well i'm not in my room now. We held a funeral two days ago and i've come back to their tombstones, just sitting here. It's not until now i figured i'd bring my diary, write something. At first i thought i wouldn't have anything to write since i'm mostly just talking to them right now. Michael Will Carter and Millie Jennifer King-Carter died on the 4th of May 2012. It's a large grove where all the victims of the battle are buried, and in the middle we have the memorial fountain for the bodies that were never found. Well, i think it's time to go home, Maria is picking me up and i can see her at the entrance.
Love y/n Carter

19th of July 2012
Dear Diary
I think i'm ready to get back into life now, but only for one reason. Maria Hill. She asked me out yesterday, like on a date date. At first i thought it was just because she felt bad for me so i declined but when she asked for the third time with the explanation that she hasn't been able to take her eyes of me since she first saw me, i accepted. God, i don't even know what to wear so i'm asking Nat for help. Not that she knows what it's for, i'm not ready to tell anyone about my liking to women before i'm sure myself. Hopefully Tony will let me borrow the car so we can go into town, do a little shopping. I'm so excited i took an extra lap around the mansion's perimeter. Let's just say, it really long. like at least tre miles around if you don't count the garage and drive in. Wish me all the luck on the date.
Xoxo y/n Carter

Arya pov

There's one thing i detect as i read the entries. It's that the one with the initial death message of her parents she writes 'love' instead of 'xoxo'. Sure i skipped a few entries but they all have the same 'xoxo' except for that one. I mean, there are at least three more where she writes about that but they all end the same. Why sign every entry in a diary, it's not like people are gonna read it and if they do they'll know every entry was by the same person. Judging by the handwriting it's pretty clear it's the same person. But i can't find the piece that'll make them all drop they're full guard, without that information i might as well be lost. I could use the fact that she dates Maria before coming out and there's only Maria to confirm that, but is it enough. Or sleeping with Nat the night before that mission, only one person to confirm that too. But it has to be something i wouldn't have written up in a diary, something... i stop myself as i see a picture on the door wall. A picture of her and Maria in the water, Bucky looking at them with laughter from the bridge. There is a feeling in that picture that might just be the thing i'm looking for. Luckily the date of the day is written on the frame. I look through the diaries of 2015 for the day but it isn't written down. Jackpot, now i just gotta figure it out.