She doesn't understand. Damn that sounds so cliche. Well, at this point idk. I think I'm just gonna draw away from all my friends. Like be antisocial. Just don't talk. Maybe going selectively mute is a good idea. I won't even talk to my best friends. I love them to death but I don't think I should have friends. It seems as though I don't deserve it. I'm really annoying anyway I know they don't like me that much honestly. My best friend kinda just talked me out of killing myself. I guess that shows how low my mental health has gotten. I'm really trying. Honestly. But it's hard to get homework done when I'm protecting myself from myself. Kind weird right? Protecting myself from myself. I'm trying to keep my mental health good but sacrificing my grades. Keeping my mental health in check means I don't die and stay happy. But keeping my grades in check means I might kill myself and stay depressed but I don't fail. I guess it's the lesser of two evils. I don't like pain though. So I wouldn't have cut myself. Maybe my grandma's oxycodone. Idk I'll check back in in a month or so. If I don't, you know where I'll be. Also stan NCT💚
X , Tina<3
