When the Arab mafia princess finds out her dad wants to get married after her mom died the year before she isn't having it she packs and leaves but only if she knew there would be more then one mafia trying to find her
She's a baddie with a double...
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I'm taking a shower right now but I can't help but feel like shit.
I don't feel so good! Emotionlessly.
I feel stuck, lost, helpless, numb, weak.
I want to talk to someone I wish it was that easy. I really just want to pour out all my problems.
But I can't, I just can't I want to speck up about things that hurt me but I can't.
I feel stuck kinda like in a bottle where there's no way out but I'm just stuck with my emotions, I try to help myself well used to, but now I'm just waiting for that one day, that day that Will make me happy, and most likely everyone else.
I try to be happy because that's just what people tell you " be happy!" But it doesn't work that way.
I try faking it until I make it but that's fake I've been doing it my whole life, and the outcome Is fucking nothing more then numbness.
Numbness is a good thing to me sometimes. Because when im numb I don't have to feel things I don't have to feel what I actually feel. Does that make sense?
The bad part of it is, inside all that numbness is a broken heart that just keeps getting shattered over and over again, And needs repairing.
No one has a perfect life but we sure could try to but it's all fake, being happy it's fake!
There's a timer clicking until its up and everything you ever felt the emotions.
Happiness, loving, caring.
It disappears and the only emotions you will feel are sadness, weakness,and fucking pain!
I wanted to disappear and I did but these bitches found me and all I have to do now is just find those fuckers and everyone will leave me the fuck alone I will be happy I just have to wait.
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