SUGA POV
In the next 3 days, the members have come up with tactics on how to have a conversation with their chosen individual. Jin was the first one to do on the first night.
He challenged Namjoon to a quiz game. Which he suprisingly won. We don't know how that happened. But he did won. And his deal was that Namjoon will do one wish. And his wish was a date with Namjoon that night. And then he got his serious conversation.
I knew what Jin was going to tell Namjoon. And I already talked to him about it but he doesn't want to accept my answer. So I was the one who told him to speak to Namjoon.
Now, for the problem at hand. I need to speak to JK. Which is hard because I would see him go to our room and when we our eyes meet he runs away. I don't know who he's going to speak with. It's either me or Jin.
On the 2nd night, we decided to play a game of truth or drink. We spin the bottle, ask the chosen person a question, drink if he refuses to answer.
Hope: Spin!
Hope spin the bottle and it landed on himself. We all laughed.
V: Okay, I'll ask. Hobi-hyung, did you ever want to get a separate bedroom?
Jimin: What?????
Jimin was his roommate.
Hobi: Ummmmmmmm. I'll drink.
Jimin: Noooo! Answer the question!
Hobi: Well~ Jimin has a visitor recently so I think it's better if I do.
My eyes opened wide. Everyone wa quiet.
Yoongi: I actually think you really should get a separate bedroom.
Hobi: See. He agrees.
We spun and spun the bottle. And personal questions were raised. Then, it landed on Jin-hyung.
Namjoon: Jin-hyung! I'll ask you something.
Jin: What?
Hobi: This is exciting. No one ever asks Jin personal stuff.
Jin: Really?
Yoongi: Yea. We just find out about it sooner or later. Through a vlive or a tweet.
Namjoon: So, Jin-hyung. What's the biggest thing that's bothering you right now?
Jin: Namjoon, you can't ask me about the things we talked about on our date.
Namjoon: Come on. I think everyone should know.
JK: What? What?
Jimin: What is it?
Jin smiled at us and sighed. He's going to tell everyone.
Jin: I'm thinking of... taking a long break.
Everyone: What??
Jin: I-it's not yet—
V: As in, without us??
Hobi: Outside the group?
Jimin: How about us?
Jin: You guys will be fine. We went on without Yoongi for 2 months.
V: Ah, so for just 2 months?
Jin was quiet. He told me about it a few weeks after the big scandal.
Jin: It's going to be a year plus my enlistment.
JK: W-Why?
Jin: It's for the best. You guys will be fine. No one will even notice.
JK: I will.
We all looked at JK.
JK: I will notice. Why are you doing this? Why didn't you say anything?
Jin: JK, there's a lot of things—
JK: Is it because of what I said in the train station??
Everyone was quiet. No one really knows what happened there. How Jin found JK and how he was hurt.
Jin: JK—
Jungkook stood up crying and left.
Everyone went to their own rooms after this. I took 2 beers from the fridge and headed to JK's room. When I opened his door, I hear him hiding his sobs.
Yoongi: JK.
He didn't move.
Yoongi: Come on. Let's have a drink.
JK stood straight. His hair messy, eyes swollen, nose all red. I pulled his arm outside the bedroom to a space where there's couch and table. We sat across each other. He was still wiping face with his long sleeves like a cat.
Yoongi: Here have a drink.
I pushed a drink to him. JK grabbed the glass and chugged it all. I poured again and he drank again.
Yoongi: What's up?
JK is still sobbing as he played around the rim of his cup.
Yoongi: Don't want to talk about it?
JK shook his head left and right.
Yoongi: How about our project? Do you want to talk about it?
JK: What about it? (Sobbing)
Yoongi: How are you finding making your own music?
JK: It's.... Okay.
Yoongi: Okay?
JK: Am I supposed to feel other than that?
There was a pause. That's not how I felt in making music.
Yoongi: Whenever I see Jimin, I feel like it's a warm sunny day with a slight breeze. Like a good breakfast on a rest day. Like a ramyun on a hard night. A cold beer knowing I can wake up late tomorrow. I feel relaxed. And peaceful. Like everything is going to great. Not just okay.
JK looked at me.
JK: Sounds like you guys are really fond of each other.
Yoongi: I love how Jimin makes me feel peaceful because everyday's hard. And because I'm peaceful, I can make music. And making music makes me complete. Because it's me. This is what I do. This is what I love doing. And I love Jimin because I can do what I love doing. He makes me want to continue.
I looked at JK and paused.
Yoongi: Isn't that how you feel for Jin-hyung?
JK sobbed again and covered his face with his hands covered sleeves.
JK: Jin-hyung is leaving me.
Yoongi: He's leaving us. Not just you.
JK: I don't want to.
Yoongi: Just let him rest.
JK: No. I can't. I can't do this without Jin-hyung.
JK continued on sobbing.
JK: You're blaming me, aren't you?
I looked at JK. Jin was right. If anything happened to him, JK will be devastated. Because I told him so.
Yoongi: JK, whatever happened last August 31 is still above our heads. The same goes for you and Jin. And I want to apologize for what I did.
JK looked at me with his puffy eyes.
JK: Why?
Yoongi: Jin-hyung told me that I was wrong for shouting at you. And what I said was very harsh. That I was hard. That what I said could have made you worse. And he's right. It did. You might seem okay outside. Performing and getting projects left and right. But you're still not over it. It's my fault. I'm sorry.
JK cried harder because of what I said and he covered his face again.
Yoongi: Come on. I already said sorry.
He lift his face and looked at me.
JK: I can't believe how much that lift off the burden off of me.
Yoongi: But it's not yet fully off isn't it?
JK: No.
Yoongi: Talk to Jin. He's going to want to talk to you.
I stood up and gathered the beers and cups.
JK: He does not.
Yoongi: Trust me. He does.
Then I heard a knock from the glass window. It was Jin. He was smiling at us and signing to drink beer.
JK: Jin-hyung.
Yoongi: He couldn't last it without you. You guys should talk.
JK: Did you call him?
Yoongi: Ofcourse not.
JK: Making music is okay, Suga-hyung.
I looked at JK. He was smiling. He's grinning so much looking at Jin.
JK: But making music for this person in front of me is something I want to devote my whole life.
