Jin: What's up?
JUNGKOOK POV
Jin asked as I poured to my glass. He's sitting across me with his legs crossed.
JK: You and Suga-hyung asked the same first question.
Jin: Did you answer him?
JK: No.
Jin chuckled and drank.
Jin: JK. You're really good at what you do.
So please—
JK: Don't leave me, Jin-hyung.
It was silent. We looked at each other for a couple of seconds I felt like the world stopped. Jin-hyung finally bent his head down and looked away.
Jin: I want to say sorry for what happened last August 31, JK.
JK: Why should you be sorry?
Jin: I blame myself. I didn't understand how much you were pressured. I kept on coming to your room not supporting you.
JK: No! Why would you say that?
Jin: You guys have it different. I don't understand the pressure that you guys feel because I don't get projects like you guys.
JK: Stop! Why are you saying these things?
Jin: I feel like a burden sometimes. I cannot contribute anything. I can't even help.
I stood up and cupped Jin-hyung's small face with my two hands.
JK: Stop it, okay. Why should you be sorry for these things? Why do you think you're less than us? You're not, okay. Stop.
Jin-hyung pouted.
Jin: Let go of me. Why are you getting mad at this?
I leaned my face towards Jin and kissed. I waited for this for so long. I didn't want to let go. But Jin-hyung pulled away to breath.
Jin: I can't breathe.
I kneeled down. Still keeping my hands to his face.
JK: Jin-hyung, you have different stuff than us. We are a group but we still have our individual lives. We all go through different things. That doesn't make you less than us.
I paused and leaned to kiss again.
JK: I hate you for saying these things about you when you're the only reason I kept on going. Your cooking, your company, your energy, your presence— it kept me going through it all.
Then I wrapped my arms around Jin.
JK: And it's not just me. You keep everyone sane and you keep everyone together. It's not BTS if we're not 7 and you've been keeping us 7 all these years. I just love you so much.
I felt Jin's hands to my waist as he help me stood up.
Jin: Your legs will get hurt. Stand up.
I don't want to let go. I've missed these moments and I don't want to not be here again.
Jin: JK.
JK: No.
Jin-hyung put his hand on my head and kissed my cheek.
Jin: Come on, JK. Let's lie down. I'm tired.
Jin pulled my hand to my bedroom and we lay down.
When times are hard, Jin-hyung would come to my room and pull me away from my work. Lying down next to him, wrapped with each other makes me feel safe, relaxed. Peaceful. Like everything's going to be alright because he's here. Like I can make good music again and again.
JK: Don't go, Jin-hyung.
Jin: I talked to Namjoon last night about this. I talked to Suga last month about this.
JK: Did they let you go?
There was a pause. Did they?
Jin: They said to talk to you first.
JIN POV
(The date)
Jin: I wanted to talk to you about it.
Namjoon: About what happened that night?
Jin: No.
I can't look at Namjoon's eyes.
Jin: I'm thinking of quitting, Namjoon.
Namjoon: What?
The cold air is not making this easier.
Jin: I blame myself for what happened to JK.
Namjoon: How is that your fault? From what I heard from Suga, it was JK's fault you got hurt. You still have to go to rehabilitation for your arm.
Jin: I don't have it hard like you guys. I cannot contribute to anything. I kept on bothering JK not realizing this.
Namjoon: When did he say you were bothering him?
Jin: I feel like it's my fault he got burned out.
Namjoon: I can't patch these. How is this your fault?
Jin: I kept on bothering him.
Namjoon: You mean going to his room at 3am? Or cooking meals for him? Or talking to him through his problems? You're bothering him with this?
I paused.
I don't really know at this point.
Jin: I just thought.. if I have the skills, I could have contribute rather than doing those things.
Namjoon held my hand.
Namjoon: Jin-hyung, you contribute so much more than you know.
Namjoon paused and took a sip of his wine.
Namjoon: You always bring out our best. Encouraging us. You help us with other things so we can do what we are good at. And yes, I know, it's not really about performances, or dancing, or music making. But we are more than idols. We are human. Us, 7, we are family. And in our family, we help each other with the different skills that we have.
I never thought of that way. When I was recruited, I had to work so hard because I have to become a great performer. But when I was brought to a group, we have different contributions to bring out the best of each other. And the best of one another makes us a great group.
Namjoon: Why don't you talk to JK?
Jin: What?
Namjoon: Talk to him. If you guys work this out, you'll be back to your usual confidence again.
I paused and looked far. Talk to JK? Aren't we always talking?
Namjoon: You and JK always bring out the best of each other. You always sing your heart out knowing JK's there. JK writes song about you that really deserves awards. You should tak. Work this out. I know you guys can.
I never thought of it that way.
Namjoon: Also, Jin-hyung. If you want to learn these stuff, I can teach you. Write music, lyrics, and stuff. It'll be fun. Then you can teach me other stuff that you're good at or you can teach all of us how to cook.
Jin: Thank you, Namjoon. I never thought of things these way. It felt good talking to you.
Namjoon: You will feel much better talking to JK.
(Present)
It was already 9am and I fell asleep on JK's room. He was still wrapped around me when I woke up. When I moved to sit down, Bam jumped on the bed.
Jin: Bam! Did you sleep well last night?
I felt JK wrap his arms around me.
JK: Jin-hyung, don't leave.
Jin: You've been telling me that since last night.
JK: I really don't want you to leave.
I patted JK's head and pulled it towards me to kiss.
Jin: I'm not leaving, okay. So, just calm down.
JK: I'm going to write so many music for you and we're going to win awards and get a lot of money and when we retire, I'm taking you to Busan.
Jin: I can get to Busan even without a lot of money.
JK: Then anywhere you want.
I kissed JK again.
Jin: I missed this.
JK: Me too.
Jin: But I have to get up and cook lunch.
JK: For me?
Jin: For everyone.
