I'm so sorry, Em. I'm so fucking sorry that you can't grow up with a big sister. With a person always by your side. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I always am such a bitch to you. I am so so sorry. I didn't want to hurt you. But look. I am. You didn't do anything. You were the only light my life has ever known. You were my little sunshine. My little me. Don't turn out like me. Don't. Don't make the same mistakes I made. Don't mourn over me. I don't know if they're gonna read this to you or if your gonna read it when your older. I don't know. I hope they don't tell you just right out. I hope they wait until your a little bit older. I'm sorry. No six year old should go through this. I am so sorry. I love you. I love you so much. I love you more than you could ever begin to imagine. I hope you forgive me. I had to do this. For your sake. You couldn't have a bad influence like me around. I love you. You were my little angel. You are my little angel. I hope you don't make the same mistakes I did. I hope to god you dont. I love you, child. Forgive me. Please forgive me.
- Lamp Post
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
p.s. im so sorry i was always so mean. i dont know why i was and im sorry im leaving you by yourself with the step family and dad. im so sorry, love.
