Royal Tears [BL]

21

Despair.

Theonesse never thought he will experienced it. The bruised on his arms and the evidence of mental torture was seen on his eyes. It was painful but somehow he couldn't cry.

The cold prison and the mages' mana.

He hated all of it.

It also crossed his mind to end it all when he was imprisoned. He couldn't handle it. Why can't he lived a normal life?

The Palace. The nobility. All of them makes him sick. It was unfamiliar things he was forced to adapt the moment he was born into this world but not once he felt happy.

So what if he is Prince? He was alone. He doesn't have his own family to protect him.

The young child who doesn't even remember his own name anymore found another identity. In this world. He is Theonesse, The Abandoned Prince.

He heard it from the people who took him to the Cold Palace. They treated him as if he isn't a human being and the fact, There a times he suffered from injuries because of a royal maids' carelessness however not once, they felt he was pitiful.

It was blessing, He can no longer remember some of those memories however it forever made a scar on his heart. He couldn't heal it even though it happened when he could barely understand everything.

He once blamed himself for being ill in his past life. Maybe if he didn't died, he won't need to go through all of this.

In the end, he stopped thinking about anything and lived, not expecting for people to liked him. So he play alone and smiled even though sometimes they will be painfully harsh to him.

Maybe because they can't see hatred in his eyes, they began to get tired of him. He become a completely forgotten Prince and for the first time he almost begged because of hunger.

Then he met the Young Reyasha who once saved him from falling from the river and a few royal maids who will secretly gave him meals everyday. Even Reyasha didn't recognized him when she met him again because he used to be malnourished and ugly.

The short and young Falco also once nursed his wounds on his knees when he couldn't walk properly at age of 2 years old.

None of them recognized him as an abandoned Prince however it all changed when he met the Amirr Twins and Athanasia.

They saved him and He choose to stay with them.

Athanasia who reminds him of his sister and Amirr twins who loves him unconditionally like his parents.

He wants to survive because even though he is weak, There a people who are willing to be by his side.

"Athy." Theonesse opened his eyes and look straight at the familiar blue eyes. It hold so much affection and sympathy.

"You look tired." He noticed it when Athanasia picked him up with her shaky arms.

"My silly brother." Athanasia whispered under her breath and can't help but smiled bitterly. "You look ugly right now."

Theonesse cracked a smile on his lips. He can see still a sadness on Athanasia's eyes as she continued to brushed his hair— Slowly trying to comfort him.

"When you finally gained your chubby cheeks again, i will allow you to do what you want. However for now, i want you to take care of yourself."

She walk infront of the tall window and slowly opened it. You can see a burning curtains on the side. Athanasia burned it with mana so the room will be lighten up by the sun.

Theonesse was too weak to moved his own body. He was forced to stay awake in dark room after being mentally tortured.

The Emperor was lucky his brother didn't lost his mind or she wouldn't dare to imagine what she would do.

"I will rule over this country?"

Athanasia can see the aftermath of the battle last night. The destroyed garden and the corpses scattered everywhere.  The Emperor of the country still haven't order the servants and knights to cleaned up. It made the Crown Princess contemplate if she should snatch the throne sooner.

"The Amirr Twins will be here soon and... your friends."

Athanasia raised her eyebrows. If Lucas was there, he will noticed the jealously obviously written on her forehead. A sister who only wants her younger brother's attention on her. Lucas will surely ridiculed her if he can read her mind right now.

"Eh. i'm sure they are good people." Athanasia's smile was obviously forced.

"How about Fa— The Emperor?"

Athanasia closed the windows with bang and her cold eyes made Theonesse unable to utter another word.

"If you have a power to turn back the time, what would you do?" Athanasia elegantly sat on the sofa while asking those question. Theonesse can no longer see any emotion on Athanasia's face. It was no longer Athanasia— his sister but it was the Crown Princess who has a power over the Empire.

"Live differently." Theonesse answered quickly and lowered his gaze. "If you could lived differently or maybe changed something for better. I don't think it's a bad thing."

"You're right." Athanasia smiled ridiculous. "Unfortunately, someone is an idiot who never learned."

Theonesse who was already asleep didn't notice how Athanasia choked when she realized his younger brother wasn't really listening and was already in dreamland.

Theonesse who was ridding a chocolate fluffy cloud on a candy village heard a vaguely voice.

"I'm glad you are born in this world."