It was a cloudy rainy night, I was unable to sleep because of overthinking
As if the universe is tutoring me, the cold weather and the cold of losing you is a disaster and the only solution is seeing your face
There are ghosts and monsters following me now, they want to tutor me, I can't defeat them if you're not here
I was knocking harshly on your house door like a psycho , I can't lose you this easily
I can't let go of your hand even if you're the one who left first
"What are you doing here Jungkook?"
Your sister was acting so cold , she was lifeless
"Where is she? Let me go to her room and apologise for getting mad at her at the jardin please"
I was about to step inside the house but his arm pushed me out harshly.
Sumi was standing on the stairs, her tears wasn't stopping just like the rain above me
But that rain won't be as heavy as my tears if I didn't hold you now.
"Let me go up to her taehyung"
I was losing my voice, feeling myself getting ripped to pieces and my needs to see you is much bigger than I can handle.
You , my baby tried to push him away but he pushed me out the house violently, he looked so angry...what all this cruelty is for?
But I didn't give up , to get to you I'm ready to rip myself apart to reach you
I was bogging down the stairs and Sumi was trying to help me, my hand was on my chest...on my shuddering heart
In some way, I know why my heart was shuddering , its the scare of losing you...of losing life, what was hurting me
Where are you?
Your room was dead and empty when I broke into it
My body was trembling and shuddering so hard, please stop playing with me..please
Because I cannot take it anymore, I don't deserve this..I don't deserve any of this
All I deserve and want is you..can you show up please?
"She's dead Jungkook when are you going to understand that?"
He yelled at me loudly crying
He yelled with no mercy and no right to lie like this, who does he think himself to kill you while you're still alive?
While you're with me!
I hold my head harshly feeling myself getting ripped to million pieces
"You're lying! She was here...she's here and she will forever "
You have a heartless brother sweetie, but I'm here whenever you needed me
But where are you now?
Where are you to show them that they're wrong and I'm not
"This is not real, tell him Sumi...tell him that she was here yesterday, that she was passing her hand on my hair and kissed me, even if our kiss was a sad kiss"
"You should let go Jungkook, she left long time ago"
I'm begging you tell him that you're here...tell him that I'm not crazy and you're here
Tell him that he's not as close to you as me
Tell him , because your Kookie is suffering and so hurt here
