Learning to Live

Chapter 7

Luca woke up very warm and in a tight embrace, he slowly moved and looked up to see he was being hugged by Andre which made him smile but then he remembered yesterday and the smile dropped and a frown appeared. His head was killing him and he bet his face was a mess from all the crying, he was trying to move out of Andre's embrace without waking him.
"Morning Luca" oh god his morning voice is sexy Luca thought "sorry to wake you but I need the loo and your very very warm" Luca giggled as he ran out the room, he came back a couple of minutes later to find Andre still in his bed, Luca had his head tilted and a confused look on his face, Andre looked up at the beautiful boy "are you ok?" "Ummm that's kind of a stupid question after yesterday's melt down" he said as he sat at the end of the bed rubbing his face, Andre got off the bed and knelt down in front of the boy "Yes maybe it was but I want to make sure that you are ok, what happened yesterday, what made you so sad, I can't have my boy that sad, we are gonna go have showers, then we are going out for breakfast" and with that Andre left Luca in his room, what the My Boy, Luca turned his head to look at where Andre had been standing, he definitely said My Boy. Luca was to tired and his head hurt to much to give much thought to it.

They didn't say much whilst having breakfast, Luca really didn't want to talk about the past and he really really didn't want to talk about it in public.
"So how is school going for you?" He shrugged my shoulders "you know same old thing 5 days a week" "Made any friends?" Luca laughed at that an shook his head "wouldn't say a friend more like"
"Oh look who we have here the rat, I didn't know homeless people could eat in restaurants" Luca finished what he had in his mouth then turned to Jess, then back at Andre who looked mad, Luca shook his head at Andre, "Well good morning to you Jess, are you jealous? Did you want to eat breakfast with me?" He winked at him then smiled "what no I'm not gay" he shrugged his shoulders "I didn't say anything about being gay, I just said breakfast, so what's going on in your mind" his friends were now silent watching along with Andre no one had noticed it was Andre sitting with him "oh shut up you fag, stay away from me, your nothing, go back to the alleyway you came from" at that moment Andre turned to look at him and started to stand up "If I was you boy, I would fuck off before I get really mad" he looked Jess right in the eye as Jess realised who it was "Now. Get. Lost" Jess and this 2 friends ran out the door.
Luca giggled and carried on eating "So I'm guessing that's the friend who isn't really a friend" he nodded "yeah he got in my face on the first day and I think I was the first person to ever answer back and it's kinda just gone on from there, but it's never been about sexuality before" He said frowning "I know he isn't 100% straight he just doesn't realise it, so I don't rub it in his face but I like teasing him" he said with a smirk.

They left the restaurant "So your gay then?" Luca nodded "Yeah, you got a problem with that?" "No, I'm gay too" "that explains it then" Andre tilted his head at him "explains what" "No girls coming out your room, I always thought that the guys in gangs just slept with all the girls" Andre laughed, a real laugh Luca had never heard Andre laugh so freely "it's true ask Reggie......so are we gonna talk about" "Fine but my way" Luca grab Andre's hand as if it was nothing but it made Andre smile.
They walked towards the cemetery still holding hands but in silence, it wasn't uncomfortable but it wasn't comfortable, you could tell Luca had a lot on his mind. Luca stopped in front of the grave he was at yesterday.
"Hi Liam, I would like you to meet Andre, Andre I would like you to meet my twin brother Liam" "Hi Liam, nice to meet you" Andre let go of Lucas hand and wrapped him in a tight embrace and directed him to a bench.
IThey sat there for 10 minutes with Luca's head resting on Andre's shoulder and Andre rubbing small circles on Luca's hand, Luca was quietly crying but you could hear the sniffles. Then out of no where
"Me and Liam did everything together, you never just got one you got both of us, Liam and I were identical in looks but personality wise we were completely different, he was so shy, quiet, a watcher I guess you would say he could read anyone where as I am well me, out spoken, I was always up to mischief never liked being in the house, if I wasn't playing a sport, I was skateboarding actually that was the one thing Liam was better at than me, maybe because he had more time to practice whilst I was playing football or basketball" he sighed not taking his eyes off Liam he continued
"I had never got into big trouble come on I was 10 or 11 years old just little pranks on my friends and they did them back to me and Liam, but I had noticed my parents were always mad at me, they blamed me for everything even for things when I wasn't in the house, our sister started to get in on it too and started blaming me, Liam tried to back me up but it didn't usually work, dad started to.......started to hit me" he could feel his tears down his face and tried to wipe them with his sleeves
"On.....on the day he died Liam had tutoring at the library so he would be home late but I didn't have anything planned however the tutor was ill so cancelled the lesson, Liam went home but didn't tell anyone including me, I didn't want to be by myself at home so I went to the park then went to the library to meet Liam, I realised he wasn't there so made my way home thinking it had finished early, I walked down the road and saw police cars and an ambulance at our house, I ran into the house and could hear my parents screaming that Luca was dead I was so confused so I stepped into the room and said what are you talking about I'm right here, they both turned to me mouth open then back at the police and my mum screamed No No No not Liam please not Liam, it's the wrong one" Luca was now hiccuping through his tears Andre moved him so Luca was now straddling him and curled up in his chest "oh baby boy I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry" he rub his hands up and down Lucas back trying to calm him down.
"The police ruled it an accident, no one told me what had happened but over the next couple of years and through the beatings and comments from my parents and sister, I basically worked out that they pushed him down the stairs and he broke his neck, but it was meant to be me not him he was meant to be at the library. My parents murdered my brother thinking it was me and they got away with it" Luca was now hysterical with tears. Andre didn't know what to do or say "Luca I'm so sorry you had to go through that, I'm sorry you have lost your other half, no words or actions can bring him back, but I will always be here for you ok" Luca nodded into Andre's chest. After another half an hour Luca had managed to get his crying under control.
"Is that everything that happened?" Luca shook his head no "do you want to tell me, you don't have to" Luca nodded yes "Just not here, I'm freezing, I'm sorry about your coat" "it's fine it's only tears"Luca got off Andre and Andre stood up grabbing Luca's hand as if it was the most natural thing to do, and it was to both of them, they walked back to the house in silence. Andre text the group and told them to stay out the house or stay in their rooms until he says otherwise, they all wanted to know why but he wouldn't explain.