HATE TO LOVE YOU [JENLISA] ON-GOING

CHAPTER 6

[JENNIE] Yep, still me.

Yesterday was such a great time with Lisa. After watching a movie she took me to a restaurant, it wasn't an expensive one but I love how thoughtful she is, the efforts she put into it is heart warming.

After a lovely meal at a restaurant, she took me to an amusement park and we rode a lot of deathly rides that all the time I'm just clinging on to her arms while both of us are screaming.

It was a gut wrenching experience but being with Lisa reduces my fear and brought joy to my day. The greatest ride we had was when we were in a ferris wheel, the romantic type when people called it because it takes you up, gives you a city lights view plus it's serene.

That's the time when Lisa told me a little about her mom, dad, and her brother Bright. I also told her how my dad sees me as a failure that no matter how hard I try, I'm nothing compared to my big sister Irene who died 4 years ago due to suicide.

I'm glad that we're becoming good friends, it's something that I never expected to happen. It's good that Lisa is slowly opening her heart to me, she's starting to get comfortable around me and her usual cold tone towards me exchanged with a goofy, playful, cheerful, and sweet one.

{Short flashback from yesterday}

While inside the ferris wheel.

"So, Nini. Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?" She asked and her giving me an adorable nickname made me smile from ear to ear, showing her my gummy smile.

"Hmmm... Still in Law School?" I said, sounding unsure.

She chuckled and rephrased her question. "Okay repeat. Where do you see yourself 10 years from now aside from being a lawyer already?"

Oh, deep.

Her question made me ponder. It hit me tons of reality.

"Well. Already married?" I said with hesitation.

"You're not sure about that," She said.

"I don't know. I really haven't planned any yet. I have no idea what the future holds. Thinking more of it scares me. It's makes me anxious," I said honestly.

"Tell me more about it,"

She's really a good listener.

"I honestly think that my mind was programmed to be a lawyer because that's what I always put to my mind when I was a kid. Be a lawyer, Jennie. Be a lawyer! Be like this, be like that. You should be this and that. And it's like it's already engraved during my childhood up to now, but I'm not really sure if it's what I really want," I sighed.

"It became your comfort zone, isn't it? That it makes you feel that you're lost whenever you come out of it," She said and it struck me.

Wow.

I nodded. "Perhaps it is,"

"How about Kai? Do you consider him as your comfort zone?" She asked and it made gulped, making me ponder again.

Is he?

"Well, we're now almost a year of being together and — I" I paused. "Lisaaa! Your question is so hard to answer," I complained.

"It's not actually a hard question, Nini. You're just afraid that you might say the wrong answer which you thought is right because deep down you know the truth," She said and it got me so confused that my mind buffered for a while.