˚₊ˑ ༘𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙝𝙤𝙢𝙚 ₊ˑ༄

he hits you

wait baby i didn't mean it.
i back into the corner to try to get away from him.
i start to burst out crying.
jaden covers my mouth
"shush shush jay will hear you" he whispers.
i wheep through his hand. i can't believe he just did that.
i can't control my crying.
i slide down against the wall and hit the floor.
jaden follows me down.
"shush shush baby i'm sorry be quite" he try's to hold me.
i scream against his hand. and snatch it away.
i start to silent cry and put my head in my knees.
"i can't believe you just did that" i cry.
"baby i am so sorry"
"why couldn't you just love me?" i look up at jaden. with the saddest eyes. my entire face is showing how devastated i am. i can see us through the mirror he has in the corner.
jaden starts to cry.
"i'm sorry alright? it won't happen again."
"jaden youre fucking evil" i cry out.
the door starts to rattle. jay just be coming in.
jaden rushes to get up from his position on the floor.
jay walks in with a few other of his friends. they all see me on the floor and jaden has the guiltiest look on his face.
"are you guys okay?" one of them says.
"yeah we're fine just had a bad argument" jaden looks upset now.
i try to hide my face. until i feel a strong sense to vomit. i get up from the floor and rush into the bathroom across the hall. all the boys seemed to stare at me.
i instantly lock the bathroom door and hover over the toilet.
i puke almost immediately. i couldn't believe what was happening to me.
i look at myself in the mirror. my face is unrecognizable.
i have a huge red hand print on the side of my face.
i look in the mirror and my eyes look dead. there's no life behind my eyes. the instant i got away from jaden my heart rate calmed down a bit.
i start to hear sirens . my heart drops.
i hear fighting coming outside the bathroom door.
"WHO FUCKING CALLED THE COPS DID YOU CALL THE COPS" jaden yells banging on the bathroom door.
panic shouts through me. the door hits the gorund making me further dissociate.
one of jays friends had tackled jaden.
his weight knocking the flimsy door down.
"what the fuck get off of me"
jaden pushes him off him.
the boys rush into the bathroom to assist the boy.
they all see me scattered in the corner.
they start arguing . the police bang on the door hearing the fighting.
i rush pass the group to open the door.
the police officer sees me and i immediately latch onto him. i was desperate for safety.
"it's okay darling stay outside" he pats my head. the other officers walk into the apartment.
"okay sweetie tell me what happened? which one is the boyfriend?"
"he's the tall one." i hesitate. i don't want jaden to go to jail. i needed him.
"okay do you wanna file a report?" he asks.
"no. i'm okay" i try to look honest.
"one of the other men in there called and said he saw a mark on your face." the officer stated.
"yes but it's okay. i just want these guys out the house." i look down on the ground.
everyone ends up getting kicked out except jaden and jay and the officers leave.
jadens in his room with the door locked.
i knock on his door.
"jaden please let me in."
the door opens and jaden looks pissed.
"jaden. i'm sorry."
he goes into close the door on me but i stop him.
"no. stop."
"JADEN"
"what the fuck do you want?" he snaps at me.
i feel desperate. i couldn't lose him.
so i take off my top.
he pauses. dumbfounded.
"oh so you take your tits out and you're just expecting me to fuck you?"
"yes." my eyes pleading at him.
"come here you whore" jaden grabs me by the neck and i enjoy it.
he throws me against the wall and makes out with me still holding my throat.
"daddy" i whimper.
he starts to finger me.
"yeah you like that you fucking slut"
i nod trying not to cum.

he fucks me and he holds me after.
there's no love here.
only pain.