My Poems By: Marion Britanico

EXISTENCE By: Marion Britanico

I'm stuck and filled with words, yet I have nothing to say.

Overflowing thoughts, yet my brain felt hollow and empty?

Seconds in a couple of minutes and hours from night till day.

I can see right through things, but my mission was blurry.

I'm compassionate and selfless, but what is the essence?

If my efforts were the countless tears I withdraw.

When no one remembers the importance of my presence,

I'm pathetically worthless and that's what they saw.

I've tried my best to amuse them, rather be worthy.

Even surpass their criticisms with dignity and pride.

How long will it take for me to embrace the reality?

If the truth of my existence keeps crashing me inside.

I can bear the pain, no matter how long it takes.

But, I can't handle the knowledge of the truth if they're all lies.

Like puzzle pieces that were created, molded then breaks,

A soulful hope that was shattered, silently mourning then cries.

Blood flows through my veins, but I'm completely numb.

From the harsh words and judgments that continue to feed.

I grew deaf and blind not because I'm disabled nor dumb,

But my pride is ripping me down, wiping me out, making me bleed.

I've sucked out the negativities that continue to flare.

Driving back the importance of what really matters most.

I've encountered too many hindrances with nothing to spare,

And I've balanced my joy and pains, which makes me the host.

I may be timid, weak, and fragile in your eyes,

But that's one trick to survive the existence of life's stability.

It's the simplest cover to relay the surprise and disguise,

When the secret is about GOD's existence in me.

 09-09-17