𝔐𝔦𝔯𝔦𝔗𝔞𝔪𝔞 ~ 𝕋𝕙𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣

Chapter Six

TW: Panic Attack

Later that night Mirio knocked on Tamaki's door as it was pretty late and he hadn't heard from the indigo haired boy. It took him a second, but Tamaki answered the door. "Hey M-mirio.." he muttered quietly. "Hey my love!" Mirio smiled before picking Tamaki up and kissing his forehead, then sitting on the bed with Tamaki in his lap. Tamaki blushed slightly and hid his face in the crook of Mirio's neck. "Cutie" The blonde giggled and kissed Tamaki's cheek. He blushed faintly and smiled a bit. "Mm..." He mumbled. "How was the rest of your day, sunshine?" "It was fine.." He mumbled quietly. Mirio kissed his cheek a few more times before laying back, Tamaki laying across his chest.

(Tamaki's POV)

"You're so adorable~" Mirio cooed at me. I felt my cheeks warm up and I knew I was blushing, so I hid my face in Mirio's chest. I shut my eyes and just took in this moment of intimacy. I know we're not always gonna have these moments. I hate that. Suddenly, my breathing picked up as I began spiraling into my thoughts. What if Mirio gets hurt somehow? He doesn't have a quirk anymore. What if he dies? What if he... leaves. What if he breaks up with me?! What if I'm just dreaming. What if none of this is real? What if I'm dead and I'm just making up stories as I die! I began to have a panic attack as I got lost in my thoughts. I didn't know it at the time but I was hyperventilating and crying. I sat up and curled up in a ball, tucking my knees all the way to my chest as I rocked back and forth. I continued to have these scary and terrible thoughts as Mirio sat up and turned to me. "Sunshine..?" I heard him ask softly. God dammit Tamaki you're such a burden. You should just stop now. Maybe break up with him so he doesn't have to feel bad about it. He doesn't care about you. He never has and never will. He could never love someone as pathetic as you. All you do is be a bother. You're good for nothing. You don't deserve him! Nobody deserves him. And he deserves the world. While my thoughts were racing, I started to shake. I was sobbing hard at this point and Mirio was just sitting there. See? He doesn't care about you. He thinks you're weak. Pathetic. Useless. A waste of space.

My thoughts continued racing before Mirio finally snapped me out of it, pulling me into his lap and kissing me. I froze completely but my body slowly un-tensed. I let out a quiet hiccup as my tears slowly stopped, and he kissed over both of my eyes, then my nose, followed by my lips. "There you go Sunshine.. just relax.. just like that kit-kat.." Mirio pulled me into a hug as I shut my eyes and buried my face in the crook of his neck. I was suddenly exhausted from all of the crying and shaking I was doing. I let out another quiet hiccup as my breathing slowly began to regulate. "Deep breaths my love.. I love you.. it's gonna be okay..." I didn't quite catch what he said at the end there, because my mind froze at the 'I love you' part. "W-wait what..?" I felt my cheeks and ears heat up. Mirio looked down at me and I moved myself off of his shoulder. "I said I love you" Mirio repeated, sounding worried.

(Mirio's POV)

Ah crap. I messed up, didn't I? I'm moving too fast. Crap. "I said I love you" I repeated myself, clearly at least a small hint of worry in my voice. Tamaki seemed to tense up in my arms, causing me to worry a bit more. Tamaki seemed to think for a moment before just nuzzling into me again, causing me to accidentally frown somewhat.

(Tamaki's POV)

Shoot. There I go again messing everything up! I can't even say it back. God Mirio I fucking love you. Why can't I say it? It's three words! But those three words hold so much meaning behind them. God. C'mon. Just say it. Three words! Say it!! I began pressuring myself into trying to say the words, though it was to no avail. I completely froze.