That's Life

14

Jas POV

The last couple days Danny and I been at her house and we been good. I've been thinking about taking her on a date and going out with her and showing her that I do care and I do want to know about her.

At the end of the day Danny is a woman and should be treated like so.

Right now we're still at her house laying on the couch together. She surprisingly came to lay with me so she's between my legs laying on my stomach while I rub her head.

I've waited a long time for this. To have someone that brings me peace. Danny always infatuated me there was something about her that makes me want to hold her all the time and feel her skin.

I feel whole around her even though we just met each other not too long ago.

In this moment I feel happy.

"I want to take you out tonight." My hand still in her hair she looks up at me.

"Like a date? Like at a restaurant?" Her eyes are giving off an uneasy vibe.

I want to frown but I don't want her to feel bad. Maybe dates aren't her thing.

"I mean yeah but if that's not what you want I'm okay with that. We can always do something else" I smile not wanting her to feel bad.

"No we can do it. I've just never been asked on a date, that's usually my job."

We chuckle at her statement and go back to watching the TV.

I'm happy she accepted my offer but something about it is bothering me. Does she not really fuck with me. Does she not feel how I feel? I know it is early in this relationship but damn I thought feelings were mutual.

I spent the next couple hours questioning how good I thought we were going. I'll just see how the date-dinner goes and ask later.

—————hours later————————————

I've been antsy all day. Since I've mentioned us going  out I've been over thinking and over analyzing everything.

I went home to get ready. Now that I'm ready I'm nervous.

I'm on way to her house with music on to hype myself up.

I park infront of her house and walk in knowing her door is unlocked.

I close the door behind me and let out the breath I didn't know I was holding.

"Baby?" Should I stay here? Should I find her? Fuck it.

I slowly walk up the stairs after getting no response.

"Your chariot awaits my kween" I laugh at myself. I'm weird.

I hear music the closer I get to her door. When I finally open it she's on her bed dressed and vibing to her music.

We make eye contact and I watch her scan my body after she stopped rapping mid verse.

"I do clean up nice if I do say so myself." I chuckle at my statement.

She rolls her eyes and I walk to her holding my hand out being the gentlewoman I am.

Reluctantly she takes my hand and we walk to the car like so.

Throughout the drive we listened to my playlist. We was hype as fuck with the hood coming out of both of us spitting verses.

I park the car in front of a nice restaurant the white people be at. They got some good steak and they mashed potatoes are alright but this is definitely where you take your lady and not your friend. Especially since you're going to spend a pretty penny in this place.

"Stay right there" I look at her with a serious a expression.

I get out of the car smiling then walk around to her side and open her door.

She looks at me confused but smiles back.

"Ma lady"

"Weirdo" we both laugh walking to the restaurant with her arm linked to mine.

I open the door letting her in before me finding no one at the front.

I can't help but smile she gorgeous, handsome, pretty, sexy, and she's here with me. I thought I would never see the day.

A woman comes to greet us and Danny let's go of my arm.

"Hi, do you have a reservation with us tonight?"

I look at Danny wondering why she detached herself from me but respond.

"Yes under White, Jasmine White."

"Yes! Follow me" she smiles and I smile back being polite. I offer my arm to link with Danny once again but she follows the woman as if she didn't notice.

I shake it off and follow them.

When seated we both smile at the woman before she leaves.

"This place is nice I ain't never been here and I lived here all my life." Danny looks around subtly amazed by the place.

"I tried finding somewhere upscale but not too bougie." I laugh. "Tell me about yourself. Your pet peeves, your best moments, your worst moments, things you want for yourself in the future. Anything"

The waitress comes. "Would you guys like any drinks?"

We order our drink and Danny starts the conversation.

"My best moment was opening the shop but also keeping it open for over a year. Opening the shop was a success for me but I was still scared I would fail to manage my own business. I worried if my shop would be as popular as it is now and thought I would spiral into debt but I took the risk anyway."

I smile watching her reflect on her achievement.

"My worst moment," she chuckled and I can see her thinking about it. "My worst moment was being kicked out. My mom kicked me out and kept me away from my little brother. Only Shey really knows the background of everything but my little brother was my rock he was the only thing that kept me alive when I was still in school." She's been messing with her fingers while explaining this to me. I see the pain in her face thinking about her little brother.

"My house was so toxic with my mom bringing in men that didn't like the fact that I was gay and two step dads a month. My mom never said nothing bad about me or hurt me, she just wasn't there for me. She didn't protect me from them and I knew I needed to leave. But my little brother brought me out of a really dark place. He was the only one who hugged me and told me everything is okay. He meant everything to me." She swallowed hard taking a deep breath. Danny looked up at me and smiled with so much pain in her heart.

"When she kicked me out I didn't care but she kicked me out leaving no chance for me to see my brother. I stayed with Shey and would call, I would go to the house until one of her niggas threatened me if I ever came around again. He was so young he wasn't even in middle school yet. I've missed him grow, I've missed his bad days, I've missed his good days, I don't even know what he looks like right now. She took away everything by keeping me from him and she knew it." She stopped, thinking over her story.

"But! I've grown since then and would've never had the motive to become better without that happening." I stare at her trying to mask the pain she's reliving.

I smile at her saying the first thing that came to mind.

"You're beautiful, and sexy as shit. I just wanted you to know that. I do also hate that you had to go through that but you wouldn't be you without your experiences."

The rest of the night was filled with laughs after us sharing sob stories over dinner. I wanted her to do nothing but smile the entire night and she did meaning I'm satisfied.

When we got back I was going to leave and give her space but she asked if I could stay so I did.

We laid with each other talking and laughing until almost 2am. I enjoyed being in her space. This feeling is weird as shit to me but I like it shit I love it more than anything.