That's Life

24

Jas POV

Right now I don't want to move. There's about twenty minutes until I HAVE to get up and get ready for this date. Alisa's been texting me all day I guess you can say she's excited. I want to be but it's hard because all I'm really thinking about is Danny.

Stop. Ugh.

I made my bed so I will lay in it.

My phone beeps which I assume is Alisa so I just get up and take my towel off. I already showered but was too lazy to do anything else.

As I'm walking around the room aimlessly I heard my phone vibrate again. I pick it up staring at the bright screen, expecting it to be messages from Alisa (which it was) but I also have a message from Danny.

Alisa: I should be omw in about...20

Danny: I don't know how to feel right now...I miss you but I don't know how to feel rn

Danny: Can you come over to talk?

I want to respond. I want to run over there. I want to tell her how much I appreciate her confession and that...I miss you too

Me (to Danny): I'm sorry but I can't.

I close my phone without responding to Alisa. I would but Danny texting me doesn't make me want to go any more than I did before.

I slowly get up and turn on music in attempt to mildly cheer me up.

I find me a subtle outfit that's shows 'dinner' without the effort. Now that I approve of my outfit in the mirror, I start on my hair and throw it in a ponytail.

Not too long after I finished I hear my phone go off again and as expected, it is Alisa.

A: Im outside

Me: bet

I look at myself one last time trying to get rid of this feeling and walk out the room.

"Let's make the best of tonight."

I walk out and find her waiting at my door.

"And hello to you" I laugh in shock.

She smiles leaning in for what I assumed was a hug.

"Hi" Her lips crash against mine.

Nothing in me said to kiss back. This feels like cheating all over again. Stop

I walk towards her car without looking at her and get in on my own. I'm not gonna make it tonight man.

"Hey, I'm sorry if that was a little too much. I got real ahead of myself." Alisa looked at me before turning the car on.

"No. No don't worry about it I just been real blah lately I'm sorry" I say trying not to dampen the date that hasn't even started.

She started driving without saying anything. I don't know if that's good or bad but it was much appreciated. We get to this restaurant I've been looking at lately which is making me feel a little better. I didn't realize how hungry I am until we walked in.

Right now we're following someone to our table and still haven't said much to each other.

"I didn't know where else to take you and this was the first place in mind."

We reach the table and she pulls out my chair. "Thank you and I don't mind this place. I've been thinking about coming here soon anyway."

"How have you been? You seem really down." Alisa asks me with concern on her face.

I chuckle at her statement not really knowing what to say. "Honestly?"

"Truthfully" she replies.

"My girlfriend and I broke up recently. It was my fault and I've been trying to let her go and give her space but I love her. I know we're on a date right now and this is not what you want to hear but I can't get into something romantic with you right now. I don't want to waste your time and if you don't want to talk after today I'm fine. I just don't want to use you nor do I want to lead you on while I'm going through this."

I pick up my cup of water officially over this date that hasn't even started.

She reaches across the table and grabs my hand. I look at her and our eyes meet.

"Yes I wish that wasn't the case but if you don't have a problem with it I'm willing to be a friend to you." Her thumb is rubs the back of my hand. "Your not ready and I understand that. I'm willing to wait and hope you are okay with that."

I smile at her statement. "I am very much fine with that. Thanks Alisa."

"No problem. Now my friend, let's eat."

I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't feel great but I feel a lot better.

The rest of the dinner was full of conversation and laughs. Alisa might be a good friend, I don't have many. Tonight started with Danny on my mind but right now i guess you can say I'm not entirely stressed. Good conversation and food. I guess you can say this is what I needed.

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Alisa + Jas?

Danny + Jas?

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