13/01/2022
The alarm goes off. Snooze. The alarm goes off. Snooze. The alarm goes off and it kills the dream you were having. Back to reality. Remember!
Turn it off! Shut up! Quiet. Go silent.
You should be out of bed already. You're late. You're late to class, to the gym, to the exam, to breakfast. No time for breakfast. Text her good morning.
Stop! Think. You need to eat to function. Remember!
You need to drink water before eating. Drink water! Stay hydrated. Coffee time.
Put some clothes on. Nothing fits. Everything is loose but you gained weight. Look in the mirror. Remember! Be kind to yourself.
Grab some jeans and a shirt. This shoes are dirty and the other ones don't go with the outfit. You're late! The alarm goes off. Time to leave the house. The alarm is still going. Can't find the phone. Shut up! Quiet. Go silent. Everyone is asleep. Try not to wake up the whole house.
Wash your face. Wash your teeth. Wash them again. Mouth wash. Look in the mirror. You lost the train. You're late to class. Open the door. Remember!
You forgot to take the pill. Close the door. Try not to wake up the whole house. Grab some water. Stay hydrated.
Sunscreen on. Backpack. Coat. Open the door. Remember!
You forgot lunch. Fuck it. Stop! Think. You need to eat to function. Remember! You'll buy some.
Maybe you should take the bus instead. Calculate a new route. Train. Go catch the next train. Run to catch the next train. Put your mask on. Breathe. Remember!
Check the room you're having a class in so you can mentally know how to get there. Be efficent. Be sufficient. Your phone is low on battery. Forgot your charger. Can't listen to music. Check your watch. You're late. Run.
Your legs hurt from yesterday's workout. Drink some water. Stay hydrated. Remember!
Focus in class. Has she texted back? Yes. Smile. Focus. You're hungry. Your body needs food.
You forgot to bring more money. Choose food that will last you for the day. Snacks! Eat clean. Eat enough. Eat healthy. Remember!
Missed call. You can call later. You need to eat better. You need to look better. You need to dress better. You need to wake up in time. You need to exercise. You need to be kind. You need to be happy!
Take a shower. Should you wash your hair? Do you have gym tomorrow morning? Wash your hair. Why isn't it sunny?
Put clothes on. Wait. Stop. Lotion your body. You can't forget to put lotion on your body. Dry your hair. Blow dry your hair. Fight with your mum over dinner. Don't talk back! Maybe she is having a bad day too. Remember! Be kind.
You haven't drank enough water today. You ate crap. You gained weight. You didn't study. You didn't call your friend. You forgot to call your friend. The train is leaving. The alarm is going off. Your mum is yelling. Shut up! Quiet. Go silent. Remember!
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