I'm glad I captured you

Chapter 11

WARNING: there will be some smut and some sensitive topics about depression and self harm. In this book killua is kinky asf, and Gon too. There will be things like blood, leashes, vibrators, and etc... you have been warned.
(Y'all this was longer than I expected............. Soooooo this is also my first time. So I hope you guys like it).

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I get up to go solve my problem that Gon caused. Honestly I just want him to walk inside this bathroom and take what's his. I guess that would only be my imagination since I don't have luck like that anyways.

I strip naked in front of the mirror only to see the hideous secrets I hide from everyone. No one, not even my sister knows about my secrets. I wonder though, how would react when he finds out about them. I sigh in aggravation because all those negative that I have been trying to repress are slowly appearing in my thoughts again. i just want to have that feeling again. Its like im addicted to it, addicted to feeling that again. That feeling of the pain, the sharp stings every time that cold blade glides against my pale skin. The way the deep cuts look like when they turn pink. That pain is what I'm addicted to. Those scars show me how bad my addiction got. They are a reminder of those cold, lonely endless nights.

I run my fingers against my scars feeling every speed bump there are until I reached a stop sign. Where they all end. The back of my elbows. I look back up in the mirror and try to smile, but I can't. I can't even recognize my own smile. I've been faking my smile so much that I can't even tell the difference between my real smile or my fake. Honestly, the only way I could ever tell is when Im with Gon. That's when I could tell when I truly smile. I don't have to fake it with him.

I lifted up my arms to stretch but immediately put them back down when I smelt the onions coming from my arm pits. I walk over to the bath tub and run the water. I like the water scorching hot or below 0 degrees celsius . This time I just put it scorching hot just because I felt like it. When it was done I hopped in the tub and pulled the little something that turned the shower head water running.

It was a really nice relaxing shower. I loved the way the hot water felt running through my hair down my back. It felt amazing. When I was done with my shower I let the water run again but this time I plugged the drain and poured some lavender soap in the water.

When I was satisfied with how high the water level was I sat down and relaxed for a few minutes. Then I slide my hands down to my dick and felt how hard it was still. I guess I still can't get him out my head.

I press on my tip and let a small grunt, them slowly start pumping my dick up and down. I did this at a slow pace but fasten it up a bit. The faster I went the the louder my grunts would get. All I kept on thinking about was Gon on top of me with that stupid smirk on his face.

"Ughh~ fuck... Gon"

I stroke my dick harder and faster while sending small electric shocks through out my dick.

My dick was throbbing and twitching while I moved my free hand up my chests and played with my nipples. I twisted them and flicked them.

I accidentally electrocuted my nipples too hard which caused my body to thrust my hips forward and moan loudly.

"AHHHH.... FUCK ME HARDER"

"GOOONNN~"

I stoke my dick harder and faster, unable to control how loud I am. The different images keep popping up in my head causing me to go blind and not notice Gon watching me.

"Mmhmm~ Gon..... Gon.
" mmmmhmmhmm, AHHH, yea fuck"

I removed my other and placed it on my dick giving it more electricity because I couldn't control it anymore. My body stopped responding to me and did everything on it own. My eyes rolled back on pleasure while my mouth was wide open from my loud moans escaping my mouth while drool slowly dripped from the side of my mouth.