Trouble with hating a Riddle (Mattheo Riddle fanfic)

Breaking her heart and mine

Mattheo's POV
I had fun last night. Honestly. Even knowing that the next day I'm breaking her heart and mine. I don't want this but I want Bree safe.
"good morning, sleepyhead," She says smiling, making me jump out of my thoughts. I plaster a smile on my face.
"Hi." She brushes her still wet hair from the shower.
"I gotta talk to Arya, but I'll see you at breakfast, ok?" She looks up and makes eye contact with me in the mirror, putting earrings in.
"Sure! See ya there." She says, turning back to the mirror. I walk over, kiss her cheek and walk out of there. When I reach Arya's dorm, I knock on her door. She opens it, still in her pajamas.
"Dude. What do you want? It's 7:00." She states, rubbing her eyes. "Breakfast starts at 7:30. I still got 30 minutes at least." I don't say anything but push past her. She looks at me strangely and closes the door. I pace back and forth, she crosses her arms and stares.
"I can't do this... I can't."
"No. No. You can, you have to. Unless you want Bree to, well... you know." She sighs and sits on the bed.
"I know it sucks. I get that. But you want her to be safe. Right?" I slowly nod and sit next to her.
"I'm going to miss her."
"She's a nice girl and I'm still gonna be her friend,that way she's safe and I have inside info for you." I smile slightly.
"Thanks, Arya." She nods.
"No problem, but I do need to get ready so..." I nod and leave the room.

In potions
I sit there, waiting for the class to start. Tom sits next to me.
"You ok?" He asks, I don't respond. I just stare blankly at the front of the room.
"Ok. Not into talking right now. I get it. It's the day." He says and starts working on the homework. I could feel eyes staring at me, wondering. I know it's Bree's eyes, I take a deep breath and start to work.

After potions
"Bubs, whats wrong?" Bree asks when she catches up to me, snatching my hand to hold it.
"Nothing." I mutter, she looks at me.
"You can tell me, you know. Is it about your dad? Or about your brother? School work, maybe? Theo, talk to me. I can help." I knew this is the time to break it. Yeah. This is the time. I groan.
"I think we need to take a break." She stops walking, so do I. She lets go of my hand. The last time I got to feel her small hand in mine.
"W-What?"
"Look, I...um, need time. Just for,uh, school stuff and you know, my father. I'm really sorry, I just need time..." I rub my forehead. I hate this. I fucking hate this.
"Bubs..." she tries. I shake my head.
"I need time! Okay? Don't you get that!" I yell, trying not to cry. Father says crying is weak. I turn and walk away.

Bree's POV
"I think we need to take a break."
The saying keeps running through my head. Over and over again. I knew he was distant and he was acting strange lately but I didn't think it would come this far. Maybe deep down I knew, I just didn't want to admit it. I could see on his face he was hurt by that saying too. I knew he tried not to show it, but I could see it. I understand it's school work and his family, more like his dad. I may understand but it still hurts.