Sweet And Sour

Chapter 7: I met her look-alike

Mark's POV

I dedicate my life studying. My whole world revolved around school and house, then vise versa. Every seconds of my life has been put to studying I didn't waste any second. I didn't want to have any Latin honors I just want to be busy and forget. I can't forget Kath. I can't take her away from my mind she's all what I think every now and then. That's why I let myself be exhausted from school works. Luckily luck is on my way and I am bombarded with school works since I am already a graduating student.

Every time I remember how happy we are together, how I was mesmerized by her genuine smile I can't help myself but to cry and long for her hugs and love. In the first month after that incident, I was struggling, I was shattered. I always end up crying, from the house, school, garden, and even plaza. Sounds gay right? I cry like there's no end, because a part of me is still hoping that she's here with me, that she's always at my side to support me and hug me when I doubt myself. No words can't measure my love for her that I look like crazy the moment she left me.

I never think in my entire life that she's dead, I just can't accept it. I am still hoping that she'd fight for me, for herself, for us. But reality will always hit me that she's gone, she left me, then I will be left in the corner again crying and mourning. I try to avoid all the places that reminds me of her, as long as I can avoid I tried to.

Until I graduate, that becomes my routine, the only difference is I became busier than usual. But not an excuse to forget her and erase her in my mind, heart and soul. she remains in my heart, and her name is already engraved over her *chest*. Two years had passed yet I am still regretting, guilty, and refusing the idea that she's already gone. She's the only person that can put my system into mess. Many questions are running in my head and what if's "what if I reply to her texts." "what if I answer her call." "will she still talk to me personally if that happens." "Did she think of going to my house?" I can't help myself but to ask. I graduated with Latin honors, professional engineer, have a stable job and working in a big company. I have all I want but not her. The only possession I want that I couldn't ever have anymore.

What's the essence of all of this If I only want you Kath! Answer me pls! answer me.

I am gripping the pen tightly unknowingly. I was signing all the papers and reviewing them before I end acting as a CEO, it is my last day. I was asked by Mrs. Cadion to take for the meantime as a CEO, her pleading eyes makes me remember Kath that afternoon she was pleading. I can read through her eyes that it's not something special for her. She was kissed by some guy in the lips that I wanted to punch the guy's face. I'd been cautious and been waiting to take her to the altar before I taste her lips. Damn that guy!

I am absently crumpling the paper I'm holding when my secretary rushed inside the office. I can see the fear in her eyes as she sees me angry. I look at her intently.

"Engineer, Engr. Manior is outside." She uttered.

I had known Mrs. Cadion since I was studying. She was one of the judges in the school when we had our presentation of designs in buildings, she's one of those who admires my works. She doesn't have any close relatives and don't have a child. She has been finding a potential man that she can trust of her company. Luckily, she can't find one who can match her standards. Until that day that she met me, she waited for me to finish my study and ask to take for the meantime as a CEO.

"Let him in." I coldly replied. She nodded her head and went outside.

"Oh! What's with your secretary she looks like scared. Did you scold her?" he asked