Remember Me (Joe Sugg fanfiction)

Chapter 7

Heeeeeeeellooooooooo! Marcus Butler reference;) I'm here with Chapter 7! Enjoy!

JOE POV

Oh god, she saw me. Probably the only secret my viewers don't know about me, and it's in the hands of a girl who pinned her mum's death on me.

As I walk into the lighted room, I look at the twitchy people around me, most of them are a little older than me.

I realised something I'd never saw before. These people around me, were in a state just as bad, or, even worse than my own. I was thinking about the repercussions of my secrets being revealed, but I hold Emily's deepest darkest secret.

She doesn't want to expose me, not after the life she's had.

I decide to sit on one of the expensive couches near the water fountain and look at my hands. Replaying the memories from two months ago in my head.

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15 minutes later

EMILY POV

I finished the mind test and took a seat once again in one of Jim's plush, red chairs. He tapped at the computer for a couple minutes. Great, now it's time to get the good news I guess. That was sarcasm if you couldn't tell.

He coughed and looked across at me, he smiled. "Well, Emily, I have found multiple causes in which you will need medication for. I'm sorry you're not completely in the clear but I think you knew there has to be something wrong with your mental health." He whispered the last part, I was grateful at the gentleness of his words.

"Okay, tell me what I have." I sighed and smiled reassuringly at him.

"If you wish. First on the list is Intermittent explosive disorder (IED), it's a behavioural disorder characterized by explosive outbursts of anger, often to the point of rage, that are disproportionate to the situation at hand." He looked up at me to check it was okay to go on. I nodded.

"Second is paranoid personality disorder, they are generally characterized by having a long-standing pattern of pervasive distrust and suspiciousness of others. A person with paranoid personality disorder will nearly always believe that other people's motives are suspect or even malevolent. Basically meaning you have trust issues for appropriate reasons, and the last one is the most difficult to live with." I sighed.

"Go ahead, how worse could it get." I said.

Jim paused, but then continued. "You also have androphobia, which is an intense and abnormal fear of men. Most androphobic cases results are that they keep avoiding men, so that it is almost impossible for them to build a relationship with men. Without further action to overcome this problem, you may choose to stay single for the rest of your life." He looked at me, reading my reaction. I lightly chucked.

"I always speak too soon." I fake smiled at him, letting a single tear fall down my cheek.

"Would you like me to call anyone?" He asked softly. I just shook my head no and stood up. I nodded a thank you quietly and made my way for the door.

So overall I have anger problems, trust issues and a phobia of men and it's the first day I've been awake in two months, looks like I'm making up for those two months in one day.

"Emily?" I hear Joe's soft voice and I snap back to reality. I realised I had been crying. He walked towards me and I caught his emotional blue eyes, the different shades of blue each representing a different emotion. He placed his hand on my shoulder and started caressing my skin with his thumb.

"Are you okay?" His eyes flushed with curiosity and something else I couldn't quite tell.

I shook his hand off of me and tried to speak but nothing came out. I stared him in the eye for what felt like forever, it was a connection, it really meant something, to the both of us.

But, I couldn't get to close, I wouldn't let the beautiful boy take an effect on me.

So I broke the eye contact, walked away and didn't look back.

These diagnostics are real, and very impacting so I hope I haven't offended anyone by using them. Please give me feedback, I really want to know whether you guys like it so far! Also really quickly, Joe is absolutely stunning.

Bye!