Inflammatory disease is caused when the immune system attacks its own tissues. Lupus can affect the joints, skin, kidneys, blood cells, brain, heart, and lungs. It's something that you can't control that you wish was never on you. It can't be cured and you are stuck living your few years of knowing I fear wondering if this was the end of your time of it was really over from something you couldn't control. I would never forget when I found out how hurt I was. Here I was living this healthy and finally happy life. A wife, 6-year-old child what more could I want. I was first diagnosed with systemic lupus in 2008, doctors told me that I would need a heart transplant and my life would never be the same again. But I can tell you Janet was there every step of the way and made sure nothing stressed me out and that was the best thing she could ever do for me.
Janet POV
Toni has been sick for a while now. It's like when she gets better she's actually getting worse. I tried every medicine in the book and every home remedy but still, nothing works. Right now Toni is in the bed with a high fever and she keeps saying she's in pain. I don't know what to do. I want to take Toni to the hospital but she won't have it she says it's just the flu or something not that serious but I can't have that. I went upstairs and saw Toni was in bed looking like her body was a 100-year-old woman.
"Michelle we have to go to the hospital you can barely move and I'm not taking no for an answer. I called Gil and asked if he could watch Nova when he came I rushed Toni to the hospital needing another room.
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"You going to be okay. I promise I'm not gonna leave it's gonna be okay." Janet said crying holding my hand.
"I know Janet please don't cry it's gonna be okay I'll be fine I love you, baby, please calm down." We leaned in to kiss each other then the doctor came in interrupting.
"Hello, ladies I'm doctor Lee I have some news. Toni, you have lupus An inflammatory disease caused when the immune system attacks its own tissues. You had the most common symptoms of face rash, flare, headache, joint stiffness, and sensitivity to light. While there's no cure for lupus, current treatments focus on improving quality of life through controlling symptoms and minimizing flare-ups. This begins with lifestyle modifications, including sun protection and diet. Further disease management includes medications, such as anti-inflammatories and steroids. And if things get too crazy we might have to have a heart transplant but that's always the last option. I'm going to step out and write your prescription so that will give you guys time to talk." I was a crying mess I didn't know what to do there was no cure and what if something happened. I don't even notice that Toni was crying and this moment was about her and I was making it about me.
"I'm sorry Janet I know this is not the life we imagined. I ruin everything I'm so sorry Janet please don't be mad at me."
"Michelle I could never get mad at you. This is not your fault okay we will just have to be more careful with things we do okay none of this is your fault you didn't ruin anything. All you have done is show me that my love for you is stronger." For the remainder of the day, I told my fans and the record company that the Rock Witchu tour was on hold.
Toni POV
For the remainder of the night, Janet held me in bed while I cried and while she cried telling me it was gonna be okay that we were gonna be okay.
"I love you, Janet, I hope you know that and I know it's been one a hell of a year but I'm god that you here and never left my side thank you for that." Janet grabbed my chin and planted her lips on mine holding me close. This kiss was different it wasn't passion it wasn't rough it was as if it was showing us a new beginning. The beginning of life what we always wanted."
"Don't thank me Michelle it's my job to take care of you and to love you even when we're on a thin line. I love the way you look at me. You make me feel like I'm the only person in the world. With you, I can be myself. I love you because we are family and friends at the same time. When we're together, all my problems disappear. You make my heart smile. You know me better than I know myself.." I was crying again and Janet was holding me closer like I wasn't close enough.
"We can try the medication then if it doesn't work then we can do more research to find something that can work for you and not stop your life. I know you've been writing something you can't hide so what's it about." I laughed because I have been writing but it was a surprise for them before I let her read it.
"It is a surprise I want to finish before I let you read it and when I'm done I want to show a publisher company and show them. I really have a good feeling about this one." Janet kissed my lips again and turned off the lamp pulling the covers up over us.
"I love you Michelle we're gonna be okay we're gonna make it through everything. I'm never leaving your side it's you and me forever like I promised you."
"I love you too I'm glad that we are together I don't want it to be with anyone but you. Goodnight baby."
"Goodnight Michelle dream beautiful dreams." I snuggled up to Janet's chest and fell straight to sleep hearing Janet snoring seconds later.
A/N- Sad moment but so good at the end. adoree_niyya there you go
