Worthless

I Guess I Don't Need A Heart - chapter 4

I ran away after seeing them hold hands I was running and crying I didn't want to be apart of nothing at that moment I was crying a river I couldn't believe it, it was like I was in a nightmare maybe even a night terror. I could breathe I wouldn't eat it hurt to much just because I thought of him over and over again no matter what I did.. I was heart broken and depression hit me and that's when I lost my imagination, happiness, and trust I felt like I could believe no one like everything was a lie and all it did was keep getting worse. Later that day I couldn't stop crying in 5th block cause everything that happened reminded me of him but while I was crying Jason put his arm around me to make me feel better of course it cheered me up a little. Then we got caught, "What are you guys doing" the teacher yelled across the room he moved his arm and we just continue doing our work and I continue crying. These 2 guys in front of us asked why wouldn't we date "I promised Marcus I wouldn't, I keep my word unlike him" they sighed " why would you follow his promise if he broke yours?" One of the boys asked "cause I still love him and care for him" this time I was the one who sighed. After that he tried to ruin my life he called me names, treated me like I was nothing, like I was a no one he told everyone in school lies about me and I kept loosing my friends .. It hurt especially since it was by the one I love.. One day all the girls had to go to the gym and we got to run around and stuff it was really fun! Except one thing , Mariah was there I wanted to be her friend because if I'm her friend maybe I could be friends with Marcus again. I walked over to Mariah and asked if we could hang out and get to know each other she said sure and gave me a fake smile then rolled her eyes, we started to get along and became pretty good friends she asked me to tell her about Marcus and I, " I'll just sum this up, he makes me feel, worthless".